I’ve never had so much difficulty studying in my life. I wake up everyday and it takes everything I have in me to open Anki and each card I do is painful. I’m so scared everything I learned during the 5 weeks of dedicated I had before this all began is slowly leaving my brain.

My heart and mind aren’t in it. The whole day I fluctuate between so many different emotions. So blessed that I’m safe at home with my family. So USELESS sitting at home complaining about having to study for Step 1 when my colleagues and teachers are on the front line

fighting to save lives. So uncertain about the future. So ready to resume my medical education so that I can train to be of use in times like this. Everything feels so heavy and I don’t know what to do or how to help or even how to exist right now. #medtwitter #step1