i am finally letting myself feel genuine disappoint in others and i actually feel liberated. i always make excuses for people and try to be very understanding but i can no longer do that while diminishing my own feelings about how people just suck when it comes to showing up.

people are SO lazy when it comes to me. they always expect me to pick up their slack in addition to doing my own work, which i literally always do. i never have an excuse for not doing my work yet people have endless excuses for me. it's always something with them.

the lack of accountability and personal responsibility irritates me because i've never once gotten away with having excuses made for me. i've always known the consequences for my actions. always been punished even for simple mistakes yet people walk around here careless af.

and then want to be connected to me. actually no. you're sloppy as fuck and have no foresight. being around you is actually very dangerous for me.

this is the root of my anger towards the certain people in my life. they don't really care about anyone but themselves because if they did, they would stop running away with their delusions and involving me in their mess. they ALWAYS involve me in their bullshit.

the amount of lies people have put me in without my consent just to cover their own ass. people are so inconsiderate. if you're going to lie, stand up in it and only involve yourself stupid bitch.