It's 1am in the morning and my mind is messing with me rn.
My mind be like: it's not me, it's you, you kept reading aus and then question yourself worth later on.
Uggghhh!!!! I hate myself! This is me overthinking once again.

Hahahahaha It's just that....
I kept thinking if it's normal? I mean, me being a 25 year old, NBSB and no one ever tried to court me or say that they kind of like me and stuff. yknow like, i kind of question my self sometimes. Is there something wrong with me?

I know there are reasons for everything and there is a perfect timing for everyone, it's just that, I can't help but to think of it sometimes. Is it weird? Am i weird?

I've talked about this with my closest friends countless times, and they were like, "no there's nothing wrong with you" they assures me that I am worth it but the overthinker me just keep on thinking when,where,how and who? Is there anyone who will see that worth they are seeing?

They said maybe I am too focus on work and my fangirling related stuffs, well yes maybe I do but that is because I have nothing to do aside from that. It's like who will I invest my time to when no one wants to invest their time with me? It's like I don't have a choice, i guess?

But yeah, idk, maybe the universe is still trying to figure out how will I have that love story of mine in this life. I just hope, maybe, it will be sooner? Like, hello universe,Just wanna remind you I look young but I am not getting any younger yknow? but I am not pressuring u

That's all. My mind is still a mess but this thread of my craziness is getting longer, so I'll just gonna deal with this thoughts with my own until I feel asleep. bye!