you ever look at old photos and don’t even remember how you used to be

was I even happy here??? It’s so bizarre looking at photos of myself when I know these were moments of extreme darkness, yet somehow I took photos smiling. It’s so scary to see how much a selfie hides

and to all the people who I know will comment on this post saying “omg so pretty” please know these photos were years ago and I simply do not look like this anymore nor have the time to do my hair like this. And it makes me wonder at what point did I just settle for less

It’s so scary looking at posts of me just literally days before a complete mental breakdown and see me smiling like this. I had gained over 30+ pounds in this photo, my ex was so abusive, and yet here we are. With nothing but a false memory of happiness

When you’re taking a photo it’s so easy to just put a smile on your face and it’s so misleading to the world when you post them bc everyone thinks you’re ok but if only everyone knew the context behind each of these

to your friends you always see smiling. To the people you always see posting happy selfies on social media. Please check up on them. Honestly, it’s such an addiction to post smiles bc you just want to run away from the reality. Be kind and be aware of your happy friends.

I posted these pictures with a lot of hesitation because I know the comments I will get. Wow you should do ur hair like that more. Wow you look so pretty here. Omg ur stunning. These photos are all old and I don’t look like this anymore. And honestly, I know why and it hurts.