Finding the right person makes things way better, but is not easy.

When you have a history of trauma, it brings up every issue you’ve ever had, & when he still likes you after you freak out eleventy billion times, you’ll think you don’t deserve it.

to him when he sees this

The other thing is, there have been other people. And many were perfectly nice and would be great for someone else, but there just wasn’t that “thing” there. If you’ve followed me for awhile, you will know I don’t share much about my private life.

I share mental health stuff, but I keep the really private stuff out of that. And this is never something I’d normally do. But it has made me want to share it. We actually met on Twitter, another thing I said I’d never do, but we live pretty close to each other.

I’m not going to say who he is. Because I didn’t ask him. But if he would like to he can. I freaked out yesterday. I’m not happy about how I acted. And this is my public apology for being that way to someone who has done everything he can to help me feel safe.