gonna rant,, again,, gonna end up deleting this because I just need to let it out for a second I just have to remember to delete it in the morningjsjfj

I’ve been so sad lately, now why have a been sad ? I don’t have any friends, that’s not even the best way to phrase it because I do but don’t. And it’s not that I feel like my friends are fulfilling their jobs as friends it’s just they’re all online, I can’t interact with them—

on a day to day basis irl (I mean before the corona virus thing). I completely love everything once I moved. I became more insecure about how I look, how I sound, how I address people, how to make a first impression, before I never cared and now it’s something I do care about—

I never thought like this because I had friends I could talk and interact with on a day to day basis and now I can’t do that. I don’t have anyone anymore. It honestly hurts. I am crumbling as a human being and I don’t know how much of this I can take. It’s starting to affect—

My grades and me as a whole. It just brings me down completely to know I have literally no one to interact with, hug, talk, play fight, etc. I don’t have that. I feel like I have no one. It hurts, it gets to a point that I just, don’t want to anymore. I’m honestly worried about—

what I might do, I’m so scared my future is gonna look horrid and I’m gonna be miserable for the next four, eight, ten years. I don’t want that. I just can’t anymore at this point. This thread was pointless :// I feel worse