there b so many nights i think bout da screams just replaying bitch i cant get over some shit like tht finding out my man despised me while bein wit me & calling dat luv .

now iv called some crazy things in my life love , & have been hurt repeatedly from mischaracterizing situations out of naivety

im not jus bout to go thru crazy azz shit wit somebody who ik jus self serving in the end , u dnt gaf about me ,jus bout having me by yo side .

mayb im speaking from a place of insanity but wtf my mind & heart just both hurt & i want it to FUCKING stop

right and its like “i didnt mean to hurt you u wasnt suppose to see tht “ YEA WELL U SHOWED ME CRYSTAL FUCKING CLEAR RIGHT DOWN TO THE “LEAVE ME ALONE”.

so im just going to ignore tht & move on cuz it aint got nun to do wit me right ? yea u got me fucked up

ofc this will jus b another memory of mine tht will float in this lil headspace invalidated wit all da other noise

i just feel so broken & hurt & idk wat ur doing & ur not finna tell me shit & im just gonna have to trust dat u rly jus wanna fwm for whateva fucking rzn & i just dk why u would..

which ig is just my own insecurity. instability

i jus hav ppl gas light me all day i feel & u not bout to b anotha one dead azz .

& if u not i need to be shown so i can trust dead azz .

its not a matter of u having to just “prove somethin” to me .. like damn i just dnt wanna b in somethin wher my nga just wants me as an accessary more than as an actual companion

plus yk wit tht girl rapper or whoever tf u tryna build it rly sound like u doin for her what u was thinkin bout tryna do for me in the beginning of wen we met pretty much except u prolly vibe wit her onna whole different level

u building wit her prolly give u sum fucking purpose other than working towards your own ascension

nga im crazy as fuck lmfaooooooooooooo i told u this shit mad early on & its also why i told u early on dat i couldnt jus rush into a relationship wit somebody or else my batshit ness just comes tf out

music is my life way more than u think , just bc ion speak on shi all da time dnt mean im not worried bout it

anyway this thread is for me not you so .. i rly dead azz have nobody to f talk to bout this .