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Oh, I have just been called out.
This guy from my nursing placement a couple of years ago gave me a drunken love confession on New Year Eve and to this day, I still can't believe I let it dragged on because I didn't want to reject/hurt them.
https://twitter.com/AquariusUnite/status/1247362212160733186
This guy from my nursing placement a couple of years ago gave me a drunken love confession on New Year Eve and to this day, I still can't believe I let it dragged on because I didn't want to reject/hurt them.
https://twitter.com/AquariusUnite/status/1247362212160733186
Like...I liked him sorta?? He's funny and great. But he is polyamorous and he was already engaged, and I'm sure no one in my circle would approve of me getting involved with this guy so uh.
That's my Capricorn dom speaking right now HAHAHA but like-
I kinda played around with the thought of me with him but our values in the end would definitely not meet up, even if I was open/accepting of his views on polygamy.
I kinda played around with the thought of me with him but our values in the end would definitely not meet up, even if I was open/accepting of his views on polygamy.
He definitely wanted something sexual from me though...uh.
I was curious but I was scared.
I was curious but I was scared.
MHMPH. Actually now that I think about it, there were like 4 guys who had openly shown signs that they liked me (?) in my life and as much as I am relieved that people?? find me worth being attracted to??? THEY WERE ALL WEIRD CREEPS.
Well, actually one of them was not that much of a creep but he was kinda on the weird geeky side...and we do not live close to each other at all (although we could've tried out a long distance r/s sorta if I was brave enough to date him???)
I knew him since primary school and everyone saw him as that quiet geeky rebel who always got in trouble with the teachers, but he had kickass shuffle dance skills and we both had piano as our common talent at the time. But we barely even spoke!
We didn't go to the same high school together but he would occasionally interact with my piano covers I used to make a lot of. He then confessed to me towards the end of high school? Or the first year post high school? via FB and like...a lot of my school friends were shocked lol
The other guy who randomly confessed to me was in high school - one of those rich international students but he was essentially super ugly and creepy in a perverted way...
Friends immediately told me he just wanted me for my boobs.
My asexual self: uh, okay...?
Friends immediately told me he just wanted me for my boobs.
My asexual self: uh, okay...?
And theeeen, the most recent guy who ended up stealing my 'first kiss' unfortunately (sexual assault?), was literally this guy I met 2 times several months ago purely for platonic reasons but he mistook my friendliness as me flirting with him I guess?
Disgusting mofo.
Disgusting mofo.
But it took me such a LOOOONG time to get myself out from that situation at the time cause like...I was too nice. Fk. I really should've slapped him at that moment but asdfghjkl I also wouldn't dare to lay a finger on anyone like that-
TL;DR - I find RL dating/relationships scary as much as I fantasise about the idea and I am too nice for my own good to reject people properly. orz #singlesincebirth #natalvenusretrogradeproblems H A H
#uglyconfessionstime but like, I kinda feel envious of people who are dating/have dated before simply because I never experienced it myself in my youth (well, I'm still kinda young now lol) but LIKE......I AM SCARED TO BE INVOLVED IN ONE.
And I don't know where this fear is coming from cause I've always been cautious about relationships even before these encounters I've had that I've listed at the beginning of this thread. orz
My parents are still together, my family is pretty standard...so what is this-
My parents are still together, my family is pretty standard...so what is this-
