so i thought of this theory, what if camille hated when harry wore something feminine or painted his nails that’s why he wrote the line “what if i’m someone i don’t want around” because he started to doubt himself. and even in golden he spoke about how she tried to change him,

for example the line “i know that your scared because i’m so open”. and he loved her a lot that’s why he felt like a terrible person. and what if tbsl was written after falling, that’s why it goes like “don’t blame me for falling i was just a little boy”

if u listen to the album in order tbsl comes right after falling. he probably wrote it after he got over her

and in tpwk he tells that he doesn’t care about what anyone thinks of him anymore and he’ll do whatever he wants to, all the songs after falling are happy.