Honestly about to chuck this book in the bin. Its impossible to write just now for a start. Then theres the not insignificant issue that every time I make some progress (having had to redraft multiple times to account for Brexit) we go through another paradigm shifting crisis.

The only way I can actually do this is if I just do a buzzfeed style list of unrelated 5000 word gripes and observations about social issues. Tying a book together coherently when the issues are constantly recontextualised by momentous events is fucking futile and demoralizinghttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">

I realise this won& #39;t rank highly on most people& #39;s hierarchy of concerns and rightly so but it is a big issue for me. Lost so much work. Taking pay cuts. kids make writing at home impossible. My whole operation is seizing up while I& #39;m still paying out for everything.

Because I did so well last year I don& #39;t qualify for support yet everything coming in goes to hmrc. So basically just trapped now in a mad cycle of work and paying debt coz of one crazy year. Finishing book 2 is the key to breaking the cycle but it just gets harder every day.

I& #39;m actually up at 1.59am thinking about this dumb shit man.

On the plus side I can go for a pee which means I won& #39;t have to get out of bed to do it later. #everycloud