out of everyone in the world, i feel as though i relate to jeanne benoit from ncis the most

especially after she found out that tony dinozzo was an ncis special agent instead of being tony dinardo who was a film teacher

but i also feel as though i relate to tony because of how the situation and circumstances was and how years later, he still loves her

and jeanne benoit seems to stay in love with him. even after she marries her husband.

something that hit me. that really really hit me that jeanne said was,

“okay. so we’re good now? or will you one day find another reason to stop by? and always at the precise moment when i’m starting to feel whole again.”

if you even knew. the effect you had on me. even years later. maybe you would empathize.

i still love you. 957 days later.
2.6 years later. 79 months later.

THIS is the effect you have on me

THIS is why i relate most to jeanne benoit more than anyone else.

this thread could not accurately describe how i’m feeling about this topic. how i feel about relating to this fictional character on a crime show.

her pain could’ve been fake. a story. an act.

but mine is far far from that.

my pain, is real.