(1/4) First time I managed to kill a spider myself. I have phobia at a point I can't even stand a picture of spider - I even might throw out of faint if one touches me. Fear sometimes makes blood run out of my nose and once I even had a body shaking similar to a...

(2/4) ... shot of electricity. Sorry for spider lovers, I really feel sorry for you and for spiders but it had reach a point i can't live with it. So, tonight is big improvement (took me 2h15 to dare open my room door and take a broom +1h to dare touch it) ...

(3/4) i'm trying to cure myself and to admit spiders in home. For now, I can look at child's drawings of spiders and some cute ones such as little jumping spiders (tiny legs, very colorful) - i read science articles to understand it and its behavior...

(4/4) if you have any ideas about how to make me more comfortable with spiders, please share. Please, don't drop scary spiders pictures in this thread. Someone once sent me one and i didn't took my phone for days. Well, goodnight (i need time to feel comfortable in my room again)