one unexpected side effect of having chronic anxiety & depression is that i& #39;m (somehow?) dealing w all of the uncertainty more calmly than my neurotypical colleagues.

i& #39;m seeing a lot of angry & panicked staff emails like: what are we supposed to?? what are next steps???

i empathize & to be clear, i& #39;m not critical of those emails.

i& #39;m just aware that such responses are largely unhelpful coping mechanisms attempting to control the uncontrollable. & i& #39;m so used to things falling apart that it feels natural to float rn rather than fight the storm.

i see a lot of colleagues, like how are we supposed to do this very important thing??? we *need* to!

& i& #39;m like 1. we don& #39;t 2. the thing is not that important 3. have you eaten today? had water? told a friend you loved them? told *yourself* that you love yourself?

my heart really goes out to folks who are experiencing intense anxiety &/or long-term depressed mood for the first time. it is very scary & my main advice is to let go of trying to organize the uncertain, focus on what you *can* control, & reach out to yr loved ones often

also, i am 100% not okay rn. i don& #39;t mean to give the false impression that i& #39;m just chilling while everything explodes. rather, i am accepting the fact that once again, things are messy and beyond my control and it really really sucks.