It’s been over a year since I had my son & I think I’m just now feeling like a normal person. The person I was the first 6 months of my sons life is someone I’m scared to be ever again. And I know that took a toll on my relationship.

Little arguments were huge to me. I didn’t want help so he stopped asking & then I’d get mad about that. My anger was heightened. How can you expect someone to know how to be a partner to you if you’ve never been that person you’ve turned into..?

And that’s no excuse for how emotionally shitty he acted towards me in the end but I can ACKNOWLEDGE that I wasn’t the person he married either. My PPD was a huge factor in our separation. I didn’t love myself so how was I supposed to believe he loved me? Hindsight is 20/20 tho.