I& #39;m trying to figure out what to write to my internship mentor about stress.

He wants me to write about how my stress can be reduced but I want to explain how everything stresses me (and I really do mean it).

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If I don& #39;t have to do anything and can just sit and stare then my stress can be kept down.

But the second I plan something like getting a glass of water because I& #39;ve forgotten to drink I get stressed! So my internship stresses me out a lot and these people don& #39;t understand that.
But the second I have to plan something things can go wrong. I have to spend a lot of energy concentrating to do something correctly, in the correct order, remembering all the steps. Planning this is stressful too.

And I do forget so I have to be vigilant in order to do things.
And the second I start to plan or do something I will be judged and people might think I& #39;m doing something incorrectly or too slowly and that& #39;s scary and stressful.

As an autistic person that can does happen regularly.
Even if I& #39;m alone doing the thing I am reminded of how someone would probably judge me and telling me off as I& #39;m desperately trying not to throw my keys in the bag before locking the door for example (happened today).
So yes, about everything does stress me incl fun things I want to do because it& #39;s hard to do them correctly.

Writing this thread stressed me and having to figure out what to write to my mentor and caseworker is really stressful too.
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