Yesterday I filmed the opening segment of my special painting show. I have a feeling this is just the first show of a future of shows. Someday I'll look back on this time, and remember how my first one was because we were all Quarantined, & my set was a short wall by the door.

It's just me, you, and my tripod. I think these are the good days (specifically about doing painting shows, obviously not about worldwide "hidden" war). My family is around me- disruptive, but I love that they are here, and their disruption is welcome. In the future, I may have

a camera crew, filming me while I paint from multiple angles, surely a stylist and probably a makeover (I always cut my own hair, I've never had a manicure, no "treatments", wear little makeup). And... my family would be pushed away from the set.
So... I'm not in a hurry for this

This Quarantine-induced push into doing shows, has given me time to think about how my life would change if I moved up professionally.
I have very mixed feelings about it.
I will take each day at a time, each step at a time. But if there is a way to be who I'm meant to be,

and still inspire as many people as I'm meant to inspire,
while maintaining my independence, I will fight for that.
I don't want people fussing over me, telling me how my face, hair, clothes could be better. I don't want cameras in my face. I don't like the idea of any of it.

I still like the idea of doing live shows, where I connect personally with the audience. But many people say I should have a TV show, and I honestly think I'd be miserable doing that. I don't even like TV. I don't watch it. I stream a few shows, and that's it.

I think these "from home" painting shows I'm starting now are my speed.
I'll stay open to something bigger, but I'm not sure bigger is always better.
Those are my thoughts for today- tomorrow may be different.

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