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yall may not care, but i& #39;ve been severely depressed lately to the point i couldnt get out of bed.
today though, i washed everything on my bed, took a long hot bath, & made dinner from scratch with dessert.
i& #39;m really proud of myself bc some days, im sure im ready to give up :((
today though, i washed everything on my bed, took a long hot bath, & made dinner from scratch with dessert.
i& #39;m really proud of myself bc some days, im sure im ready to give up :((
i know i post depressing posts a lot, but irl, i don& #39;t reach out to others & i have trouble speaking to ppl about my mental health. so for me to find the strength to get up & do all of this for myself really makes me proud bc earlier @ work, i swore my legs were gonna give out
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im crying now dkdjdjdjd rip. but if youre a new mootie & dont know yet, my mom& #39;s in hospice from terminal cancer & is expected to pass away any day now. i& #39;m struggling to accept it bc she& #39;s the closest person to me in my life. like, thats my best friend. so yeah, thats why im sad
i dont want y& #39;all to feel pity for me. it& #39;s okay. i just... idk..... i& #39;m not good @ venting in real life so this helps, i guess haha. thanks guys for understanding. i love you all with everything in me.
imma just vent on this thread. im sorry for being annoyingdkjdjd
but i literally wasnt showering for days, i wasnt getting out of bed, the whole right side of my bed was full of trash & junk food, i wasnt reaching out to people. i just shut off. i felt like i couldnt move at all
but i literally wasnt showering for days, i wasnt getting out of bed, the whole right side of my bed was full of trash & junk food, i wasnt reaching out to people. i just shut off. i felt like i couldnt move at all
i put on this stupid facade like everything is fine in fear of people thinking i& #39;m crazy because i& #39;m THAT depressed. i feel really alone even though i know i& #39;m not and i wish i could see a psychologist rn but this stupid virus is making it difficult
idek if we& #39;re gonna be able to have a funeral for my mom bc if the virus. i& #39;m scared of life without her. im smart in some areas & naive in the others, but she was the one who always helped me. i have done anything with my life & i wish i could& #39;ve done more to make her proud
i know that some day i will get better or at least improve, but right now, i& #39;m just so sad. i feel hollow & like the life is being sucked out of me bc these demons want to make my mom suffer & take her away from me and my family so soon :((( shes the kindest person i know
im just rambling now but i at least feel a bit better. i hope i dont lose followers over this https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"> i& #39;ll continue to post content of the boys always bc theyre truly my saviors and my world. i& #39;m grateful. so yeah, thanks for listening if your read this far. its all over the place lol
