No one tells you that you can never go back to the way you were before an abusive relationship.

And so here I am wondering when I’ll stop thinking about the boy who made rape jokes and made me feel like the bad guy for calling him out.

And here I am thinking about the boy who bragged about convincing his ex gf to give him head after she begged him to stop cheating.

And here I am feeling like a big ol’ dumb dumb because I’m still thinking about the boy who cornered me at a bar and screamed at me in front of our friends.

Anyway, this thread was inspired by Morbid podcasts recent episode about an abusive relationship. They go into tons of detail about what an emotionally abusive relationship might look like and why it’s so hard to leave.