I haven't left the flat to do anything other than go to the local store in about three weeks now. And only that twice. I live alone and have no pets. I'm autistic and possibly also ADD. I can't concentrate and my sleep is disordered to hell.

I miss going to the office to work. I miss being around people, even if just being in the same room as them. I miss actual human contact. Nothing feels real. Bad Brain is sneaking up on me and I don't know how to fight it off right now.

I'm aware I've got it easy. My only thing is a history of asthma and I'm unlikely to get it anyway because even without the pandemic I get dry hands from all the obsessive hand washing and I never liked going to crowded places.

But I also have a long and storied history of depression and a bunch of things that come with that. And I can feel myself slipping.

I... might delete this thread later. I guess I just needed it out of my head.

Hope everyone's having a good Sunday. I'm 'back at work' tomorrow so maybe I'll get better with that to focus on.