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I’ve been having to go into work these past 2 weeks because I’m an essential worker, a title that really means nothing because I was only given a small 150 bonus for the hours I worked in march. Most people are using their vacation and sick leave for 2 weeks and it’s slow as hell
Having a full schedule but having nothing to do in those hours is both a blessing and a curse, I enjoy being paid for basically doing nothing but I’m also struggling to find work to do and fill in the void of time going slower
Another problem I’m having is a lot of my friend groups are really busy off doing something else or just find me annoying and irritating to the point they want to avoid me. Which they arn’t wrong and I shouldn’t be caring if they do but it’s hard to change how you are
I have to constantly remind myself that the real friends see all my flaws and still try to connect with me, and if someone is avoiding me because of the flaws then I shouldn’t be looking to try and be their friends.
I also have been learning to use obs so I want to probably start either doing some real light youtube content or twitch streaming in the future. The things I’m lacking is a solid easy to use video editing software and a good audio quality mic to record with.
I know this thread is all over the place but I just felt like ranting on main for once since I got a lot of people that do care about me to a degree on here but don’t really connect as much so this is for everyone to see not just close people. I wanna be open to more friendships
