This thread is going to be a a whole thread so be warned. I tweeted this yesterday, but wanted to tweet it again so I can share the whole story. Trigger warning to thoughts of suicide and self harm. This is also a true story that I have never told anyone.
Last year, my mental health was the worst it was every been. I had started self harming in the beginning of the year and couldn& #39;t stop despite trying so hard. I had taken a break from watching anyone in YouTube around April/May. In mid-late April, I wanted to end it all.
I had a knife in my bedroom and wanted to be gone, thinking it would make everything better. I then heard my phone go off and ignored it. It went off again and looked. I saw a couple notifications from YouTube. I don& #39;t remember the exact vids or streams they were.
But they involved the core four which are @UnitedHayze @AstroidVideos @KingCorphish and @Vinny. I watched their content and they were laugh in them. I started crying and sort of realized that I had something to live for. I quickly put the object away and watched more.
I was able to work from that and start getting my mental health better from then. I haven& #39;t self harmed all year and I& #39;m proud of that. Thanks to @Vinny, @UnitedHayze, @KingCorphish, and @AstroidVideos, I have been getting better.
My mental health still isn& #39;t the best and I do have my lows, but I have grown so much from last year. The reason why I& #39;m telling this story is because @UnitedHayze made a song about anxiety and I have never related to the lyrics of a song more than this.
Once again, I need to give thanks to @KingCorphish @AstroidVideos @UnitedHayze and @Vinny for helping me out when I felt like nothing. They have shown me that there is light in the darkness that I& #39;m in.