This is one of the more personal things I have ever written, but it was rewarding to pause and try to understand why my brain has been doing a very weird thing. The best answer I have arrived at is gratitude. https://www.thedailybeast.com/coronavirus-is-making-a-lot-of-people-anxious-and-depressed-but-some-sufferers-actually-feel-better-now

Depression can make it difficult to see all the positives in my life. I feel like everything is about to go wrong and it's my fault. But right now the many ways in which I am extremely lucky are impossible to miss. (And any distress I am feeling has an obvious explanation!)

If you are struggling, please know this is in no way meant to diminish or dismiss your experience. Distress, anxiety, and depression are perfectly reasonable reactions to this nightmare. If there is anything I can do to help, please know you can always reach out.