after reading the comments on this tweet, i just want to say that sexual assault isn't funny nor is it just a joke and is never the victim's fault.

~a thread~ https://twitter.com/jaz69lyn/status/1246587761185996800

last year, i was sexually harassed during a school party. i was wearing a green crop top and ripped jeans and i was wearing a corset inside. it happened when we were forming a conga line. i wasn't with my friend and i can't remember why but i was alone in that part of the crowd.

suddenly, the guy behind me touched me and held me around my chest area. yes, his hands touched me somewhere it wasn't supposed to be. at first, i thought that it was just accident so i squirmed a bit to signal him that his hands were in the wrong place and he removed it.

so i thought that maybe it was really just an accident but after a few minutes he did it again and this time he held me tighter and his hands were already exactly touching my breast and he even lifted me a few inches above ground. i was so scared that i squirmed so hard so that

he would let go of me. when he did, i looked behind me and saw a group of guys who were laughing, i wasn't sure why because it was a party maybe they were laughing about that idk. i ran fast and looked for my friends. the first person i saw was cheska.

thank you for comforting me that night :((. i had no plans of telling any teacher or staff about what happened to me because 1) i was afraid that they would tell my parents, 2) i was afraid that they would blame my clothes and 3) i was afraid that what happened to me would spread

to the whole campus. so, i went to the cr to cry. there, i saw some of my schoolmates who were also crying because they were also sexually assaulted. they were one of the reasons i had the courage to tell my teachers what happened. after all the investigations,

someone confessed that he did most if not all of the sexual assaults that happened to us. turns out that guy was one of my close friends in their batch. itago natin siya sa pangalang "sky". i didn't believe them because i know that sky isn't that type of person.

also, knowing that he was only given an offense and was still allowed to march during their graduation and get his diploma pained me. sky going to college meant that he would be in a new campus. a new campus where only a few people know him

and what he can do, which means he can assault other people. i cried when i knew and after that, decided to forget about it. pero i wasn't able to forgeg about it. for the following months, i was scared to be hugged by other people, scared to be touched especially sa back area.

as much as possible, ayoko ng close contact with other people unless talagang pinagkakatiwalaan ko pero less than 10 na tao lang yun. after that event, i was afraid of a lot of things. that event changed me and not in a good way.

FAST FORWARD TO LAST MONTH. so we went to manila for patalasanlahi. while we were looking for a place to eat, we saw sky and i remember saying hi to him and smiling at him when all of a sudden, i remembered what he did to me. at first, i thought i was okay but i was not.

di ako mapakali, tingin ako ng tingin sa paligid kasi iniisip ko baka andiyan siya baka gawin niya uli yung ginawa niya sakin. if hindi siya, baka may ibang taong mambastos sa akin. tapos i didn't want to eat, i wanted to cry kaso andami naming kasama :((

i tried to act like i was okay in front of everyone so that they won't ask me because i know that when they do, i would burst to tears. i pretended to be happy so that i would forget about it because we had an event later that day, i needed to focus on that.

thank you sols at gab for comforting me huhu. pati si sir maps huhu parang tatay talaga siya nun. again, i thought that i was okay pero nung bumalik kami so pinagstastayan namin para magwash up, bigla nalang akong naiyak pero patago

kasi nga may mga kasama ako sa room and ayokong marinig nila and ilang minutes lang akong pwede umiyak kasi after magwash up pupunta na kaming mall. i think na ngayon, im okay na kasi i can talk about it na idk maybe im okay. im tryna be okay.

so that's my story. anws, the point of this thread is as said in the main tweet: sexual assault isn't funny nor is it just a joke and is never the victim's fault. also, if you were sexually harassed, hindi madali pero speak up.  think of all those other girls

na pwede niyang maharass and how you can be able to stop that. if you need kausap you can text me 09064716185 or pm me Ayen Bacolod or dm me.