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so since ive had a few days to self reflect... I have realized that I have been the toxic one in my past relationship. I constantly blamed this person for not wanting to be with me, when in reality, no one has to be with you. I would rub in my face all the things
I did for them and the times I was there when no one else was and that is not ohfuckingkay. That is TOXIC. I should not be forcing someone to do something 1. they dont want to do and 2. that's not for the bettering of themselves. I used their vulnerability for my own selfish gain
I needed security, love, and just someone who would see me for me and that's what they did. I appreciate them for that but when it was all over I became destructive in so many ways. To myself, my friends, my family. I did things I have never done before. I didn't recognize myself
it has been so hard for me to come to this realization but I am glad I did. While coming to this realization, I also realized that I am only 19 yo and I have so much time for relationships/love and to take very single one as a blessing and a lesson.
We all have had our hearts broken and we all have broken hearts. That is life. We will surive and oversome. And when we do, we can bring what we learned to the next amazing person to walk into our life.
So to anyone who has broken someone's heart: I know you probably feel terrible but you are not. You just did a terrible thing and as long as you know that and grow from it, you will be okay. Do not be so hard on yourself. Take time to heal and genuinely apologize to that person
To anyone who is heart broken: take time out for yourself love. I know this is difficult but I promise you, you will overcome it. Dont overthink and question who you are. You are amazing and sometimes the worst happens to the even the best of us. Keep ya head up shordie!
On the other hand, if you are not ready for a relationship and you get in one anyways because you want to fill this void of loneliness and not because you actually want to be with this person, YOU ARE WRONG AND VERY VULNERABLE for anyone's love and that's not okay
Take time out after every relationship to regroup yourself bro. Stop switching from relationship tp relationship bc all you're doing is bringing more baggage for the nxt person... and who knows that person could be the love of your life but you wouldn't know bc youre so focused
on all these other situation ships that you have not solved yet. And its unfair to the other person that you still have unfinished business and it can mentally/emotionally affect them.
The reason why I am sharing this is because I feel like someone needs to hear this and I have been wanting to get this off my chest. This all boils down to "treat people how you want to be treated" and vulnerability in relationships.
ummm if yall enjoyed reading this, I can do a blog post about it in more detail. Alrighhhhht thanks for my TayTalk.
