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Sometimes I can& #39;t get over how important Aoi Shouta is to me. Lemme try to explain why cause sometimes I can& #39;t fully process my thoughts on it. So around the time my friend showed me Showta was around the end of high school where I was really thinking hard thoughts of "I& #39;m a boy?
And in general was confused about my gender identity cause I still wanted to be "pretty" and "feminine" but also "boyish" because even right now in my journey I understand that while I have lived and been instructed to be one thing that doesn& #39;t limit my expression in regards to
being the other? If that makes sense. Anyway so Showta hits me with that Trans Winter ~Fuyu no Mukougawa~ and I& #39;m like wow who is this ethereal being. I want to be this. I also had influences from vkei and this Korean actor Lee Joon Ji in his roll The King and The Clown
so I was like well...all these men are beautiful, yet powerful, yet vulnerable etc etc and I was like well I can be that but I don& #39;t feel that I& #39;m just a woman. I want to be seen as a beautiful boy. More and more Showta showed me ways of being a beautiful boy that I resonated
with in regards to his marketing during that time. Now this was like 2007/2009 so I didn& #39;t have a lot of interviews, translations etc to work with, I mostly had music and music videos but he was beautiful and I loved him. Then of course I got way engrossed in vkei
Showta left King Records and went under another name and I just lost track of him till that fateful Pop Team Epic episode two years ago. I fuckin lost my mind. Aoi Showta was indeed the angelic prince I knew he was and I crave to be. I& #39;m thankful now there are translations
theres things I can read about involving him and see more of who he is that only make me respect and love him even more than before. He truly is my idol.
I& #39;m sure this thread made no fucking sense but when I say I fucking love Aoi Shouta I mean it.
I& #39;m sure this thread made no fucking sense but when I say I fucking love Aoi Shouta I mean it.
