Struggle to sleep last night.2nd in a row...then I made the mistake of going into my FB memories at 3am and saw this text from my Mum and Dad in 2016.

Felt like a hard punch to my stomach.
That reminder that I will never get these msgs from her again.

Fell asleep at 9am....

But I& #39;m ok now.

Thing I& #39;ve been getting into a really good space past 2 months,work is going good

Therapy and medication helped me out of that dark space and I& #39;m starting live again

Haven& #39;t cried in a long time,cos I& #39;m at that point where I& #39;ve made peace with it mostly

And I think of her every day and that pain is still there and always will be but it& #39;s no longer consuming me..I& #39;m learning to manage it and live with it and it gets little bit easier as time goes by.

@OkayAsanda you might relate to some of this thread.
I will keep you in my prayers for you to continue healing and getting stronger so that the triggers that happens occasionally wont hurt too much https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart">

And I feel her presence so strongly sometimes ...I know my Mums presence I& #39;ve had it in my life for 38 years.

So I know it& #39;s her.
Cos I get such a comforting feeling of love when it happens.

So I will always miss her but I will definitely be with her again one day https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart">

It& #39;s not like I& #39;ve forgotten that she is gone.

But life goes on and you get into a good space where you feel strong.

But then out of nowhere a memory or something will remind me that for the rest of my life I will never hear her say "i love you my boy" ...

But one thing that comforts me is that despite all of us not knowing 100% of what happens after death

My spirit knows without a doubt that death is simply goodbye for now.

Because this energy/life force/soul that operates our bodies..that part of us moves onto our next journey