Struggle to sleep last night.2nd in a row...then I made the mistake of going into my FB memories at 3am and saw this text from my Mum and Dad in 2016.

Felt like a hard punch to my stomach.
That reminder that I will never get these msgs from her again.

Fell asleep at 9am....

But I'm ok now.

Thing I've been getting into a really good space past 2 months,work is going good

Therapy and medication helped me out of that dark space and I'm starting live again

Haven't cried in a long time,cos I'm at that point where I've made peace with it mostly

And I think of her every day and that pain is still there and always will be but it's no longer consuming me..I'm learning to manage it and live with it and it gets little bit easier as time goes by.

@OkayAsanda you might relate to some of this thread.
I will keep you in my prayers for you to continue healing and getting stronger so that the triggers that happens occasionally wont hurt too much

And I feel her presence so strongly sometimes ...I know my Mums presence I've had it in my life for 38 years.

So I know it's her.
Cos I get such a comforting feeling of love when it happens.

So I will always miss her but I will definitely be with her again one day

It's not like I've forgotten that she is gone.

But life goes on and you get into a good space where you feel strong.

But then out of nowhere a memory or something will remind me that for the rest of my life I will never hear her say "i love you my boy" ...

But one thing that comforts me is that despite all of us not knowing 100% of what happens after death

My spirit knows without a doubt that death is simply goodbye for now.

Because this energy/life force/soul that operates our bodies..that part of us moves onto our next journey