A look at all the fond memories I have had with BTS, and how I eventually lost interest in them ~ an unnecessarily long and personal thread
bro this thread 25 tweets long god dang I need to calm down

This thread is mostly for me(nobody reads my tweets anyways lol) to have an archive of how I felt recently after I lost interest in BTS. Hopefully I will look back at this thread and remember good times but if u wanna read it for some reason go ahead
warning it’s boring and long

Thinkin bout how I got into BTS 3/4yrs ago(didn’t keep track of the exact date cuz I have no foresight) years ago &:
•first found the war of hormone mv at my grandmas house at like 04:00 when I should have been sleeping that made me fall in love with them(still my fave BTS mv)
•first found the war of hormone mv at my grandmas house at like 04:00 when I should have been sleeping that made me fall in love with them(still my fave BTS mv)
•made my friend @hoes_sseoks listen to me talk abt them nonstop.she hated them at first but eventually looked into them & fell in love with them even more than I did & even I tho I don’t take credit for her discovery of BTS(she probably heard of them b4 I did) 1/8
I still feel happy in knowing that I at least a little bit influenced her to look into BTS,& that’s enough for me. Knowing that I was even a small reason that she found about BTS,something that she loves so much,makes me so happy. it’s hard to explain without sounding weird
2/8

I love her so much, and even if I had no influence on her discovery of BTS it still makes me happy that she has found something that brings her so much genuine happiness, even if I wasn’t the reason of it at all.3/8
I’m honestly so proud of how much she’s grown since I met her in 7th grade(which has nothing to do with me at all &doesn’t even necessarily relate to my BTS journey but I just need to express how proud of how far she’s come cuz I’m bad at talking abt that kinda stuff with ppl)4/8
I’m just happy that she found BTS wether or not it relates to me at all. From what I can see, BTS brings her genuine happiness and I’m so happy that she can experience that. 5/8
I can’t speak for her but I know that finding NCT was one of the best things that ever happened to me. And if she feels the same way I feel abt NCT, I am honestly so happy for her. I hope everyone can find something that makes them as happy as NCT makes me, it’s amazing. 6/8
I love her more than words can explain,she changed my life in the best way imaginable,& I’m bout to text her to apologize bout some crappy stuff I’ve done and try to actually explain my feelings abt stuff instead of keeping them inside like a clown for once.7/8
If anyone is reading this wish me luck
I’m bad at putting my feelings into words, which has caused stress on our friendship and caused us to grow apart. I’ve seriously hurt her for some of the things I’ve done and don’t want that to happen again. 8/8

Ok that was a long tangent but Grace was a big part of my “journey with BTS” and I couldn’t just leave her out - rest of this thread isn’t as “heavy” I swear

•went thru the phase of my “bias”(
) being kook first then finding my actual bias yoonie after like 3 months
•Overcame my weird hatred I had for hobi in the beginning(yes I used to hate a literal angel)

•Overcame my weird hatred I had for hobi in the beginning(yes I used to hate a literal angel)
•dedicated so much time to learning their personalities, how they’ve developed as ppl(so proud of them tbh)
•freaked out when the DNA teaser came out(which was very shortly after I discovered them) cuz it was my 1st comeback with any Kpop group and it was so exciting
•freaked out when the DNA teaser came out(which was very shortly after I discovered them) cuz it was my 1st comeback with any Kpop group and it was so exciting
•bonded with my younger sister over some hot bois
•was a “cringe Kpop Stan” which I’m in no way ashamed of, as I believe being “cringe” is an integral part of shaping who you are as a person, be a cringe kpoppie if u want (as long as ur not taking it too far ofc
)
•was a “cringe Kpop Stan” which I’m in no way ashamed of, as I believe being “cringe” is an integral part of shaping who you are as a person, be a cringe kpoppie if u want (as long as ur not taking it too far ofc

•Made a lot of memories with @hoes_sseoks that I look back on with so much love it’s unreal,love her to death,sorry to bring her up again but she was with me the whole time I liked BTS &we bonded over it a ton &she was a rlly big influence on me so she’s super important to me

•was unfortunately a no jammer at first but u can’t blame me cuz it was 2016 everybody was at that time
•got thru some hard times
•found something I genuinely enjoyed and didn’t feel ashamed about admitting, even tho my parents and older sister clowned me constantly
•got thru some hard times
•found something I genuinely enjoyed and didn’t feel ashamed about admitting, even tho my parents and older sister clowned me constantly


And all the sudden, I just stopped caring about what they were doing. I found NCT, and realized that I liked their music way more than BTS’s current music, and I found Johnny and Mark, two people who I relate to in many ways(ew) and love so much it’s not even funny.
After BWL came out, I realized that the music style they were starting to have isn’t the same as their old stuff which is what made me fall in love with them in the first place. I don’t listen to the new music anymore cuz I honestly hate that type of music(no h8 tho go off kings)
And not caring about their new music made me stop looking at what they were doing. I stopped searching their names up on YouTube because I didn’t care about the music they were promoting.
I still watch old videos of them every once in a while, like their old mv’s & “crack videos” I used to enjoy like “namjoon being done with BTS for x mins” & stuff like that, but I almost never consume NEW content from them because it never comes up on my recommendation anymore
My favorite “crack video “ that I found recently after I discovered them was and still is “BTS Speaking English Compilation” by jmpouty which is such a no jammer video but it brings back good memories and I thought it was the funniest crap id ever seen when i first watched it
It honestly makes me sad that I’ve grown away from BTS because they were such a big part of my life.BTS introduced me to the Kpop world and thru that NCT,the lights of my life, as well as other K-POP groups like Ateez,Seventeen,VAV,etc.
I still support BTS. I still love Yoongi, Namjoon, Jimin, Jungkook, Taehyung, Seokjin, and Hoseok as much as I when I first found them. Honestly love them way more now than I ever have. The amount of respect, admiration, pride, and fondness I hold in my heart is overwhelming.
It’s bitter sweet to know that such a large chapter of my life has ended. I will miss you, BTS, but I will always look back at the memories you’ve given me with fondness. I’ve grown a lot since 2016, and you had a big part in that. Love you forever, ~Lilly
