Thanks to everyone getting in touch to check on me. I’m absolutely fine and I am organising paperwork and speaking to people about the recent developments regarding John Gordillo and his horrifying abuse of my daughter and 2 years of disgusting lies to cover his tracks.

I’ll answer individuals later as I am on the phone a lot today. I was beginning to pull stuff together before this anyway. I’m using this time to put paperwork together in a coherent manner. A lot of lies have been told to muddy the waters. But the story is in fact a simple one.

My daughter will have been dead for 2 years on Tuesday. It was a Saturday morning like this one when the police came knocking on my door to tell me she was gone. I know I collapsed on the floor and I remember my youngest daughter not yet 2 yrs old climbing on my back holding me.

I remember getting myself together very quickly and asking some necessary questions. The sad thing is deep down I had always been worried this may happen. Then came the vindictive, cruel campaign afterwards to stop me burying her. But it exposed more than they intended it to.

There were some powerful interests being protected. But they didn’t count on my willingness to fight. The intention was to leave me broken, broke and unable to carry on with my life. They wanted to smash my life to pieces. Needless to say it didn’t work.

What is important going forward is that I share what I have learnt with other people. How predators operate. How you don’t need to share your life with toxic people even if they’re family members. Even if it’s your own mother. Sometimes your family will do worse than a stranger.

The failings of social services in my child’s case are horrifying. They cannot simply not share information they have about someone cause they’re your family and they class your arrangement as ‘private.’ My mother had a prepubescent child removed from her care who had GONORRHOEA!

I mean FFS!!! And they let me send my child to Barbados with her and said NOTHING. They have a long record about her and my father’s dysfunctional, destructive relationship. Paedophiles and abusers can’t operate without enablers. These people play a vital role.

John Gordillo is not important. To listen to him you’d think I was some crazy out of control ex that was obsessed with him. Nothing could be further from the truth. I hadn’t seen or spoken to that man since 2009. I have emails BEGGING him to leave me and my daughter alone.

I questioned his unnatural interest in her. I told him it was disturbing. Her school reported him for hanging around her school gates speaking to her without permission. The alarm was sounded thousands of times. He tried to gaslight me claiming I imagined it and I was crazy.

He constantly maligned my character. Made false police reports about me. I have all of this documented. He said I was sick in the head. He blamed me claiming I was too strict with my child like he knew how to raise a teenage Black girl better than I did. Typical predator.

I have the email where he decided ‘I’d lost the moral right to call myself a mother’ cause I wouldn’t let him near her. I mean the fucking AUDACITY. At around this time he was banned from seeing his biological son and he gave up all rights to him without a peep.

The fact is that within a year of John Gordillo requisitioning my child he was turning her out as a sex worker. And he then used this as leverage against her in order to keep her under control. He’d then make her describe all she’d been made to do cause he’s sick and twisted.

He didn’t love that child. He didn’t see her as his daughter. This man smashed my daughter’s life into the ground cause I didn’t allow him to do it to me. I walked away. He lured her back letting her & her friends use his house to drink alcohol and take drugs. I couldn’t compete.

She realised very early on that she’d made a mistake. But she didn’t feel there was anyway back. She didn’t think I’d forgive her. But I would have. That’s why I tell my friends no matter how angry you get with your kids make sure they know the door is always open. ALWAYS.

That man has not and will not ruin my life. He isn’t the story here. He’s a sad, pathetic little man that didn’t achieve anything he set out to do. His whole life is a fucking mess. He’s pitiful but he’s not to be pitied. He’s an obsessed and his ego got hurt cause he was dumped

He’s told lie after lie after lie. He thinks he’s hurting me by using my dead child’s picture as his profile pic on here. She doesn’t even look right in the picture. It’s disturbing. He uses a pic of himself in New York with her when she was 15. I had no idea he was even there.

He threatens to release podcasts about her and her life. He’s forged emails from her that are simply laughable. He claims he will make sure I never work again. He tries to provoke me constantly by referring to me as ‘the birth mother.’ What a sad loser. This is all he has left.

I have my son. I have my youngest daughter. I have memories of my eldest child who I carried at the age of SEVENTEEN. We grew up together. He can’t erase that however hard he tries to do so. I have friends, reconnected with decent family members. He’s still ranting like a madman.

I’m as always here to answer any questions. Many women have confided in me as I’ve been very vocal about my experiences. Sadly most women have been abused or been in an abusive relationship at one time or another. But we can be a source of comfort and support for each other.

When you recognise the behaviour or you’re a victim of it then call it out. It doesn’t matter if they accuse you of being crazy, hysterical or vindictive. That’s what abusers do. Call it out. If you can leave a paper trail. I’m so grateful that I did this.

My victory will come with exposing the behaviour, challenging certain bodies about their lax practices and holding them accountable and changing the law so that coercive control is extended to take into account those driven to suicide. And John Gordillo can get in the bin.

Listen to him. Listen to him. https://twitter.com/thetwerkinggirl/status/1234971918257623041?s=21 https://twitter.com/thetwerkinggirl/status/1234971918257623041

He said I’m a liar. I’m crazy. My daughter was not involved in sex work. He jumped up at the inquest and claimed I was lying. That I was perverted for saying it. Read his own words. The man is a disgusting liar. And this convoluted story is just pathetic https://twitter.com/thetwerkinggirl/status/1162814514099826688?s=21 https://twitter.com/thetwerkinggirl/status/1162814514099826688