Cultural presentations of sexuality are ableist. After shutdowns end, able bodied people will be able to return to their narcissistic. able centric acts of pleasure painted as empowering, when they are innately dispossesive, dismissive of disabilities
Whereas disabled bodies like mine, who've long been imprisoned from their autonomy and freedom to express their humanity, will still be lonely, isolated, and without sexual intimacy. We are painted as ugly monsters, devoid of physical use and comprehension
After the torment my body and mind has endured (which has aged me), I just want to be held, I want to feel someone's hands on me that desire me and don't want to beat me into a shivering, frail and scared relic of a human
I'm exhausted of being in my body, feeling broken, feeling I have to apologise to able bodied people for daring exist. I'm gonna be treated like a cadaver that's cordoned off from pleasure/joy until the day I die. I will die feeling soulless, unworthy and completely undesirable