I don’t think I’ve said it in quite a while but I rlly do love bts with my whole heart, I know I haven’t been tweeting much abt them or followed much of their content aside from comeback but I rlly do love them so so much.

I’ve gotten so comfortable in supporting them that I don’t feel like I need to write thinkpieces on them to feel the depth and extent of my love and appreciation for them anymore. They cross my mind, my heart swells and I go on with my day.

And in some way I rlly do miss when I wasn’t comfortable like that, when I felt like any and every piece of content had to be consumed or talked abt for me to stay interested. Although interested might not be the right word since I could never not be interested in them

but idk. When I was obsessed with knowing everything about them id get so anxious if I missed anything, I don’t have that anymore. They’ve had such a big impact on my life and I never expected that loving these 7 guys could be this easy and comfortable.

I don’t even have to think abt loving them I just do. I don’t even have to think abt buying all their albums to support them I just do. I don’t even have to think abt how much they mean to me because I feel it constantly.

Its weird how this sense of comfortability and love doesn’t make me feel like I have to talk abt them all day. I always thought loving and supporting someone meant always being vocal abt it and now that that’s not the case. I just didn’t see it coming I think.

Semi self-indulgent braindump over maybe.

I think before mots7 came out I was scared. I was scared that my love for them somehow faded and yet when I listened to the album I had the most emotional response I’ve ever had to their music. It took me hours to get through it. I had to pause to keep myself from

feeling TOO much constantly. The way I sobbed during songs. It was an experience I’ve never had before. And it just solidified and broadened the place they have in my heart.

the fact that when I was scared I was slowly falling out of love with them, the thing that told me I wasn’t was the music. The core reason why I fell in love with them in the first place. Idk it makes me emotional and leaves me feeling so so !!! I can’t even explain it.

idek where I was going with this thread thing. I felt like I needed to say it, write it out. Maybe it’s bcs its twitter and its easy to talk on here. But whatever it is idk. I just love the guys. I miss them. and I hope I’ll never stop loving them really.