I feel like my ADHD is "back" and that my medication isn't working. I am pretty dang sure that this isn't true. I'm feeling really lazy and I can't complete any tasks that I enjoy ... it's frustrating. I feel like I can't do anything right even though I know I am trying my best.

My attention span is shot, my brain is foggy beyond belief, and I feel like I am glazed-over all of the time. I'm getting angry because I can't pay attention to my books. I'm sleeping until noon and waking up when I want ... but I am still so tired all of the time.

This evening, I thought about this for a long time. I have a lot of time to sit with things now. Maybe my brain is adjusting to everything being different. Maybe I am a bit overwhelmed even though I don't really feel as though I am overwhelmed right now. It's a strange feeling.

I told Eric that I was feeling like this, and he reminded me that this is a very confusing time for everybody. I'm not the only one who is struggling to try and figure this all out.

All I can do right now is to try my best to survive this pandemic.

So many things have changed in all of our lives in such a short period of time.

I think I am struggling to figure it all out, even though I don't realize it, and that my brain is working in overdrive.

I think I finally am beginning to understand that it is okay to be tired. It is okay to be unfocused. It is okay to be overwhelmed right now. There are so many things we don't know, and it is a bit scary even though I don't think I feel scared.

Everybody needs to be gentle with themselves, including me. Maybe I won't crush my 100-book reading list. Maybe my entire house isn't spotless. Maybe I've watched the same show 22 times.

Whatever we need to do to get through this is what we should be doing,

The end.