preach sis.
i once used to cry a lot each time i made out with someone cause i would feel so dirty.
i even went for counselling and was told to join one virginity group called puresexuals.

the year i was to make a purity vow, i had sex and guilt made me block him out of my life. https://twitter.com/_Nwai/status/1246216760082288641">https://twitter.com/_Nwai/sta...
we recently got back together for reunion sex and i cried so much afterwards.
mostly tears of anger that i had been brainwashed to the point that i essentially hurt someone i liked.
and someone who knows his way around my clit lol.
christianity did a lot of harm in relationships and sex for me.
for one it invalidated the fact that i& #39;m a bisexual woman.
two it elevated the relationships and marriages of heterosexual women as more worthy of respect in the eyes of the church.
three it made me feel unnecessarily resentful seeing people get married knowing i could never have that option due to the anti-gay laws influenced by the christian association of nigeria.

four and the most painful part it made even family hold me in contempt bc of my sexuality.
i& #39;m using past tense cause i& #39;ve left and i& #39;ve left for good.
i was going through my old christian feminist tweets and babe i was just managing and desperately struggling to keep head above water.

i love certain aspects of the faith like gospel music and the joy of christmas.
but the negative far outweighs the positive.

how do you build a doctrine that essentially says that babies are born sinful?
sinful means dirty and wrong.
how do you claim to love me but insist i was created wrong.
insist you need to save me else hell.
i only keep the parts of faiths that appeal to the common goal of humanity.
that& #39;s why though i believe in God cause truth be told, i& #39;ve had encounters both with christianity and igbo spirituality that have proven the supernatural, i feel all faiths have a level of imperfection.
for me, i& #39;m not big on labels right now like that.
if i have to say i& #39;m christian to survive nigeria, i would say i am and it makes me no coward.

but i know right now, christianity and i are past lovers who though couldn& #39;t make it work will still send birthday notes to ourselves
if you liked this thread, i think you might want to read my poem series documenting my first time.
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