For the people who have tried to reach out to me and include me in their businesses (probably in vid, TikTok and other things), I'm sorry if I kept rejecting (deep inside, I am willing to), I regret that... I regret for the times when I should have actually spent w/ you...

I realized that I kept goin with what/who is just with me... but not mentally with me. For the first half of this year, I regret it. I regret feeling different with them, because some half of me wants the others who are actually there for me...

I feel sorry for the times I tried to isolate myself. Not just from you (if you know who you are), but from everyone. At times, I go with 8, I laugh, I become happy (maybe because of the number of "friends"), well, honestly, out of those 8, I only trust 2.

Or wait? Maybe 3 I guess? But when I am with you, I can't explain why I feel so out of place but at the same time, whenever your actions are directed towatds me, I feel that I was never left out... I feel sorry that I went with the wrong people, ignoring the right ones.

Right ones? Well... I don't want to mention you yet. Probably, maybe by the time you read this thread. (Pero I guess the two gals will only be the ones to read this kasi kayo lang may twt) Shocks, ewan ko ba. I suddenly realized that you got the vibe I can trust.

It's really hard to find the squad I can fit in... this gr 11, I thought it will be that easy because nakasundo ko kayong lahat. Sht. I was wrong. And alam mo yung feeling na anxiety and (I don't want to say the other word, wala namang maniniwala eh), it made it more difficult.