I forgot that there is no such thing as unconditional love in this world. People, regardless family or not, will come to you only if they need something from you. I’m disappointed that even from parents there will be a tinge of selfishness towards their children.

Despite spending 3 years of my life into spirituality, i’ve yet again became the fool i once was, seeking for unconditional love in this dirty world. I gave mine away to everyone around me, and i never got anything similar in return.

I know I’m contradicting my statement by seeking for something that you shouldn’t get in return, but that’s just the nature of a human being. I always thought if you at least give 100% love maybe you’ll get some little but genuine love in return.

But i’m fucking wrong, there’s always an ulterior motive behind every time someone “cared for me”, it was never genuine. I’ve now became who i am now, thanks to certain fuckers around me.

I’m just done