Imagine the scene:
Your in a cafe when this is all over, A hot mug of tea in one hand and a good book in the other. You listen to Lofi as you watch passerby’s amble down the street. Despite being introverted and socially shy you strike a conversation with the person next to you.

I think this whole situation has revealed a lot about me.

This school year has been shit, I lost the entirely of my friendship group because of natural drifting apart. My other friends have moved away and I’ve not been in regular contact with them. My motivation has gone down

With my mental health in tow. That spark seemed to have petered out and all my dreams seemed so far away and difficult. It was not a good time.

But I began to reach out, speak to those friends and rekindle that fire. I’m now better, in fact, last night I was ecstaticly happy.

But one problem that I hate is my confidence. I get shy and scared when I talk to people I don’t know and even find talking to friends stressful because I feel like I have to keep the conversation going.

I’m fixing this though. Instead of worrying so much I let the convo flow and it so much nicer for it. Counselling has helped with some of the problems but I worry that this isolation will lead to a regression of that progress.

Honestly, when this is all over I just want to speak to people. I’m so fucking tired of being afraid. It’s messed up my life for far too long and it’s time to ask it , not so kindly, to fuck off. People are fascinating and I want to speak to as many people as I can.

This thread is a bit of a ramble but essentially I am looking forward to meeting new people once this is over. So if you want to talk about science, news, nerdy shit or your favourite colour then dm me because speaking to people sounds hella fun rn