I'm slowly coming round to the fact that I have the dumbest expectations of myself when it comes to time spent working and what work is.

Let me tell you, when your hobby becomes your job, it's confusing for a while...

I definitely worked at least a nine hour day today. Prepped and cleaned up the set area, made final revisions to script, shot talking head, did some B-roll prep and actual B-roll shooting

That's... a lot of work but it never feels like it, so I end the day feeling unaccomplished

I definitely need to still make improvements to the way I manage my time, but for goodness sake I gotta stop with this whole "what did you accomplish today you lazy bastard" vibe I'm constantly throwing at myself.

It's dumb. And unhealthy.

Luckily, I think I'm improving

I guess it took the world grinding to a halt for me to realize how hard on myself I've been. I... don't really know what to make of that but if it's something positive I can get out of this I'll take it.

And now, I will happily allow myself time to relax.