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wouldn& #39;t like but anyway i& #39;m worrying i& #39;m becoming too invested because korean entertainment is really the only thing that brings me happiness but that& #39;s such a 180º from what i originally wanted to do so how i don& #39;t know what to do from here because i can& #39;t imagine myself not
going to korea at least for a trip or becoming fluent in korrean or marrying a korean person and even though i& #39;m alone and no one knows of my deep investment i can still feel judgement on me and i& #39;m worried about myself because i don& #39;t know what i want to do in the future anymore
and i worry that k-entertainment has changed my life in so many ways that i& #39;m jealous of koreans for being korean and i just don& #39;t know how i feel and i don& #39;t know what to do because i can& #39;t imagine myself lessening my interest even though no harm my come from it but i don& #39;t even
know how to lessen my interest because every day i do something relating to k-ent like even playing piano i learn kpop songs so i guess i could pull myself away but stopping small things like that but it& #39;s so fun like i love k-ent i love it so much my freetime would be so bland
without it and i know i could still listen to the music and watch dramas and go to concerts and keep updated and watch variety shows because that’s not INCREDIBLY invested but it& #39;s still interested like rn i& #39;m invested in the most random ways so i guess i could dial it back but i
don& #39;t know where i could go from there and this is why fans of western artists are lucky because they aren’t seen as weird as nonkoreans liking kpop like i& #39;m scared to even search the term & #39;nonkoreans& #39; on twitter because i& #39;m scared of what people say about people like me idk i
could bring some western music back into my life but i& #39;m just not as interested in it like i miss one direction times when i could obsess over them and not think i was weird for it or liking england since idk ig that& #39;s not as weird for stan twitter so that& #39;s why i wish i was
korean because then i wouldn’t have all these worries about being too weird or too attached to k-ent also bc i dislike my own culture like the country is nasty and underdeveloped the people are weird and cringey and i& #39;m getting tired of a lot of the food and while i would never
exchange the life i have right now for another (cough korean) as i love my family and i can& #39;t imagine not being me but i can& #39;t help but feel longing towards korea and korean culture and i feel like they& #39;re superior to my culture you can just SEE it like there& #39;s a reason people
stan kpop and not the music from my country so that& #39;s why i wish i was korean so i wouldn& #39;t have to feel ashamed of my country or of liking korea so much and wanting to live and start a family there and also a while ago i saw one person say "being a koreaboo is wishing you& #39;re
born korean in your next life" and when i first saw that i was like pfftt that& #39;s not me but now even though idk what happens after death if there was an other life thing i wish i would be born korean so idk i think about this a lot and idk what to do"
