fuck it. merlin rewatch. and this time no dubs because fuck you.

LOOK AT HIM!!!!! A BABY!!!!!!!!

john hurt's voice...

look at this baby with his cute smile and his cute cheekbones and his cute ears...

the moment he steps into the citadel he sees someone get executed for sorcery... like boy give him a minute to settle in

uther.........

IS THAT MY GIRLFRIEND I SEE???????

the wifi disconnected just when merlin was saving gaius' life......... let me watch merlin in peace bitch

i will spend 90% of the time taking screenshots every time morgana appears

morgana was the only one who had the guts to always stand up to that tyrannical asshole...

EVE MYLES!!!!!! i love how there are always the same bunch of recycled actors in bbc shows lmao

they've exchanged three words and they already act like father and son... i love merlin and gaius

i forgot how genuinely funny this show is

he's just a little boy

stop being so beautiful challenge... ugh she's gonna fail

eve is always going to have a spot in my heart... i miss torchwood now

can merlin stop being so baby??

HERE'S MY TRASHBAG BOY!!!!!!!!!!!! IN HIS TRASHBAG WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

merlin: ur a lil bitch
arthur: U CAN'T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT
merlin: sorry... ur a lil bitch, sire

gwen!!!!!!!! GWEN!!!!!!!!!!!! GUINEVERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S THE THIRD TIME THAT MY WIFI STOPS WORKING IT'S TAKING ME TWO HOURS TO WATCH A 40 MINUTES LONG EPISODE THIS IS HOMOPHOBIA

i'm not even at half the ep... please... just let me watch this...

FINALLY!!!!!! okay let's get this magical bread

merlin trying to fight arthur will never be not funny... like. he's a trained fighter and you have two magic tricks that you barely know how to use don't be daft

the dragon biiiiitch

"arthur is the once and future king who will unite the land of albion"

"there must be another arthur because this one is an idiot" JDJSJSKSSKS I LOVE HIMDNDNSJS oh merlin

merlin and morgana... gay and lesbian solidarity

what the fuck were they doing in the beginning with arthur having a crush on morgana... like. what were they thinking. what were they thiNKING??????????????????????

merlin: *saves arhur's life*
uther: your reward will be becoming arthur's servant for the rest of your life... you will address his every whim for the next forty years
merlin: THAT'S A PUNISHMENT NOT A REWARD!!!!!!!

me writing "forty years" when i very much know they had less than a decade together... like. i wish they had forty years to hate and love each other...

before starting episode two let's reflect on this... and the homoeroticism of it all...

IN A LAND OF MYTH AND A TIME OF MAGIC, THE DESTINY OF A GREAT KINGDOM RESTS ON THE SHOULDERS OF A YOUNG BOY. HIS NAME: MERLIN.

couldn't be more ready, actually!!!!! love him

he can't even walk straight djdjsksk baby

arthur's daddy issues already making an appearance in episode two lmao he truly feels like he has to constantly prove himself...

"yeah, it must be so hard on arthur... all the girls and the glory..." merlin, my dear boy, what girls are you talking about???????????

when merlin made a joke and arthur smiled for a fraction of a second before going back into asshole mode and ordering him around... i see you, you're not as sneaky as you think you are

gaius: merlin no
merlin: merlin yes!!!
that's it that's the show

the way arthur believed merlin about valiant using magic and risked his reputation to prove him right... the way merlin looked at him when arthur said he believed him...

morgana and gwen are always next to each other in every frame they're in... girlfriendism.

uther is so fucking annoying i can't believe i'm going to have to endure his presence for four seasons...

i'm losing my mind over this shot... 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔...

they're each other's destiny... this was established right away!!!! this is what i like to call "soulmate behaviour"!!!!!

can we talk about this tho??? apart from the fact that this is the closest to apologising arthur can get, but... merlin saying "buy me a drink"?????what a shameless flirt

episode three!!! i can't believe nimueh is already here i thought she came in later in the season

gwen and merlin are so cute and pure... the way gwen was so awkward in the early seasons is so adorable. she gets flustered over the most basic interactions!!! a cutiepie!!!!!!!!

i mean, things couldn't get cuter than merlin wearing a flower gwen gave him... my babies

SHE PICKED THEM FOR MORGANA!!!!!!!! "TO CHEER YOU UP" "YOU CHEER ME UP" GWEN'S FACE!!! SHE'S SO EMBARRASSED!!!!!!! AND FLUSTERED!!!!!

gwen's father has truly the worst luck

uther if u touch on hair on gwen's head i WILL chop ur hands off

"FATHER, THERE'S NO WAY MERLIN IS A SORCERER"

the way arthur immediately defended merlin even though merlin admitted to using magic... exactly like morgana was defending gwen's innocence... arthur expected to be believed but didn't do anything to support morgana and save gwen. i guess it's fine when it's HIS servant to save

arthur was such a jerk in the beginninh

morgana: i know gwen she's not a sorceress!
uther: i pretend i do not see
arthur: i know merlin he's not a sorcerer!
uther: OF COURSE, ARTHUR, YOU'RE RIGHT

HE SAID IT!!!!! KILGHARRAH SAID IT!!!!!!! "TWO SIDES OF THE SAME COIN"

here they go to the rescue!! gwen has two hours to live, be faster arthur!!!!!!

merlin thinking that morgana had discovered about his powers... IF ONLY. if only she had known. if only they had worked on their magic together. they would have been so powerful against uther and they would have helped arthur when he got on the throne... and they'd be happy

episode four!! one of my favourites!!!!

uther, you fucking idiot NIMUEH IS STANDING RIGHT THERE

no nimueh don't try to kill merlin you're so sexy hahahaha

arthur and merlin's banter is chef kiss... never found another ship that hits so hard with the banter

UTHER MAKING MERLIN DRINK THE POISON AAAAH I HATE THAT OLD FUCKER

arthur desperately trying to find a way to save merlin... it brings tears to my eyes

the thing is... that at this point they're not even close yet. arthur feels like he has a debt to pay off since merlin saved his life with lady helen, so i think it's safe to assume he would do this for anyone under these circumstances. he's foolish and brave and i love him.

MERLIN SAYING ARTHUR'S NAME IN HIS SLEEP. SHUT UPPPP.

arthur stop trusting every pretty girl you see it's gonna get you killed

i still don't understand how merlin could see arthur in the cave... he's not the one with divinatory powers or whatever

maybe it's because of how he and arthur are connected and how his destiny is to save arthur over and over again

uther's a+ parenting shining through... your son risks his life to save someone and you shove him in a prison cell to teach him a lesson?????

gwen kissing merlin was so awkward

EPISODE FIVE LET'S GO LANCELOT STANS LET'S GOOOOO

I WANT TO SEE MY LITTLE BOY!! HERE HE COMES!

MERLIN AND LANCELOTSJXNKXMSKSKSKSKSX almost forgot how i loved them... the way they respect and appreciate each other... the way lancelot was the only one other than gaius to ever know the truth about him before it all ended... the way they always trusted each other implicitly...

the first code of camelot is rubbish lancelot is twice the man those stupid knights are..

LANCELOOOOOOT LANCELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT can't believe he only has six episodes and yet he's in the top five best characters i just love him so much

why, yes, lancelot dear, gwen and merlin are both very gay we know it. anD WHAT'S WITH THE HAND GESTURE??? SHSJSKAK

can't get this out of my head now

"are you two... you know"

corporate asks you to find the difference between the pictures.
they're the same picture.

i'm just saying... lancelot was sleeping in merlin's room the whole episode... well.

gaius just said that merlin is what he cares about the most in the whole world and then merlin said he's like a father to him found family is such a good trope

arthur looked heartbroken when lancelot announced he was leaving for good....

episode six... always hated edwin and his slimy manipulative ass

this episode is so basic...

if only they hadn't stopped all the assassination attempts towards uther... that old tyrannical bitch is useless just let him hit the bucket

six episodes in and arthur's only established character trait is that he's a dumbass who throws himself at every single danger he encounters...

episode seven nooo i hate sophia

morgana knew that her dreams were visions of the future... she always knew deep down that she had magic and she decided to tell about her visions only to gaius (her physician) and gwen... i hate how later on they ruined her relationship with gwen the most. disgusting.

when arthur accused morgana of being jealous... god, i'm gonna be sick and it's also making me think about all those people who used to ship them in the early seasons... like... how did they feel when the show revealed they were siblings?? i pity them tbh

"why should i believe you?"
"i'm your friend!"
"no, you're my servant!"

episode eight... mordred......... that little bitch........... i wanna hate him but i physically can't........

wait... uther executing anyone with magic... and morgana... she said... "what if magic isn't something you choose? what if it chooses you?"......... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... yep, this sounds gay somehow.

merlin and morgana would have been best friends if only they hadn't kept their magic from each other. he would have taught her spells and she would have kept him safe and they would have bullied arthur together. i can't stand this show.

morgana, to gwen and merlin: i wouldn't know how to live with myself if anything happened to either of you
me: give it a couple of years...........

not letting mordred die was NOT a mistake... i can't believe people wanted merlin to let a ten year old get murdered...

episode nine... you know that video of the guy running on the beach and looking over his shoulder and fake-falling and just looking coy and flirty like he's running from a sexy monster? that'd be me if nimueh ever tried to kill me... yes, queen, put your foot on my neck and chok-

uther this episode: the black knight wants his revenge on me and that means that many of you knights of camelot will die but that's a sacrifice i am willing to make.

i choked on my own spit WHY AM I LIKE THIS???? my mind is sick

uther is an awful father but at least in this episode he was willing to die for arthur... bare minimum... but yeah

uther saying to merlin that he's glad arthur has such a loyal servant... lmao... if only he knew the things merlin does for arthur...

EPISODE TEN!!!! ANOTHER FAVOURITE!!!!!!! EALDOR, MERLIN'S FIRST BOYFRIEND, HUNITH, GWEN AND MORGANA WITH SWORDS, GAY YEARNING, YES YESYESSSSSS!!!!!!! A MASTERPIECE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

spotted another actor i know: anderson from sherlock

and yeah, gendry from game of thrones is merlin's ex lmao

can't wait to see morgana and gwen with swords god they're so sexy

arthur went with merlin to ealdor just to make sure that merlin would come back to camelot because he can't stand to be without him and that's the tea

GWEN AND MORGANA BEING LIKE "OF COURSE WE'RE COMING WITH YOU TO HELP YOU, YOU'RE OUR FRIEND" SHUT UP I'M EMOTIONAL

this episode gives me a LOT of feelings i can't stand it

merlin and arthur sitting in front of a fire in the woods and exchanging meaningful glances because they know that they're important to each other...

MORGANA WITH A SWORD YES YESS YESS YESSSSS YEEEEES YES STICK THAT SWORD IN ME I DESERVE IT PLEASE

will being like "arthur's just a spoiled bitch" and merlin's like "HEY! you know what! arthur's my friend! i know all that, how do YOU know all that"? (and yes, it's a john mulaney reference)

"does arthur know your secret?"
"..."
"you're his servant, nothing more"
will is jealoussssss

another recurring theme in merthur's relationship: them laying down and sharing meaningful conversations without looking at each other before going to sleep.

hunith: arthur cares for you a great deal
merlin, oblivious and stupid like a brick: he'd do it for anyone
hunith: IT'S MORE THAN THAT
YES, HUNITH, TELL HIM!!! GET IT THROUGH HIS THICK SKULL THAT HE'S IMPORTANT TO ARTHUR!!!!!!!!!

gwen's face after arthur handed her the bowl of food he refused to eat because he's a spoiled brat djsjsksk SHE CAN'T STAND HIM SHNSSKSMLSLSL

a mother always know when your prince has a crush on you... "HE LIKES YOU" lmaooo

hunith: he cares for you a great deal
merlin: you think so??
hunith: he likes you!!!!
merlin: yeah, but does he 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 like me or does he just like me?????

i love will so much and he only had one episode...

morgana and gwen: LET THE WOMEN FIGHT
arthur: no!
me, gay panicking: SHUT UP AND LET THE WOMEN WIELD SWORDS!!!!!

gwen and morgana in the middle of the night, laying next to each other and sharing the same blanket... girlfriends...

gwen: why do you think arthur came to ealdor to fight with us?
morgana: for the same reason we did... for merlin.

will has abandonment issues and yeah i would be mad too if someone i loved just left me behind to pursue a totally different life but... he got merlin to second guess his importance to arthur when arthur risked his life for him a couple of times already...

GWEN RALLYING UP THE WOMEN TO FIGHT!!!!! CAN YOU SAY LEGENDARIC????? god i don't understand the people who hate her and say that she's useless... what a lack of taste

arthur's speech... he truly is the once and future king

"if arthur doesn't accept me for who i am... then he's not the friend i was hoping he'd be"

GWEN TEARING ARTHUR A NEW ONE!!! YES, QUEEN, TELL HIM THAT HE'S A CONCEITED SPOILED BRAT!!!!!!!! i love her

arthur refusing merlin's help with putting his armour on... and then turning around and actually helping merlin put HIS armour on... that was... tender... and gay oh so gay...

and here it is: the homoerotic handshake while they stare at each other

arthur: if you have something to say, now it's the moment to say it
me, already knowing he won't: PLEASE PLEASE merlin just tell him!!!!! just tell arthur i'm begging you to tell him!!!

all these moments where merlin is just about to tell arthur the truth about him and then he just doesn't... it hurts.

arthur when merlin does something reckless and brave: YOU STUPID IDIOT, WHY DID YOU DO THAT???
arthur when he's the one doing something reckless and brave: eh *shrugs*

arthur assuming that it was will who used magic to defeat the bandits because he doesn't want to see what's right in front of him since otherwise he'd lose merlin... he's in denial over so many things, poor child.

when arthur asked them who did it and merlin said his name so softly and his eyes went wild because he couldn't believe merlin would keep something like this from him... fuck.

merlin stroking will's hair while he dies...

episode eleven the one with the unicorn!!!! another gay episode

i love this episode because it shows that even though arthur is harsh and arrogant he also cares about his people and would do anything for them...

THE SCENE AT THE BEACH WITH THE TWO GOBLETS!!!!!!! this is where they actually started to have feelings for each other i know it they told me so

oh arthur you have no idea

seeing arthur laying down after drinking the poison and merlin rushing at his side... thinking he was dead... god this brings so many had memories

"LET ME TAKE HIS PLACE" merlin stop breaking my heart

"arthur was willing to sacrifice his life to save yours. he has proven what is truly in his heart"

this literally couldn't get any gayer

episode twelve no no this is the one where gwen's father...

morgana was so kind and caring in the beginning... can't believe i have to see her getting corrupted by morgause soon... a crime.

this is where morgana started to actually despise uther. she had to look at gwen lose her father and grieve and morgana couldn't bear watching gwen suffer like that... she loved her

"i couldn't bear it if something happened to you"

i had to actually pause the episode because i ship them so much it hurts... why did they have to put them against each other?? gwen was the only friend morgana ever had!

morgana was ready to kill uther right then and there because he made gwen suffer... but her heart was still so full of love and kindness so she couldn't do it. then morgause came along and turned that love to hatred... you truly hate to see it

morgana never did anything wrong in her life ever

uther talking about morgana's "father" and how they were great friends... like... bro... you fucked his wife...

morgana was ready to kill uther but then he showed remorse and regret and she changed her mind because she still had faith in humanity and thought he could change and become a better king... she was so good

last episode of season one!!!! le morte d'arthur!!!!!!!! such a promising title!!!!!!!!!!! i have been procrastinating for two days to avoid this episode... i wrote twenty pages just so that i could have an excuse not to watch this... how the hell am i going to last five seasons?

ARTHUR WHY DID YOU DROP YOUR SPEAR AS SOON AS THE BIG UGLY MONSTER APPEARED??? DO YOU WANT TO FUCKING DIE???? why is he so stupid why would he drop his only weapon-

uther acts all mighty and then says something like: arthur will kill the beast, arthur will do this, arthur will do that. LIKE, BITCH, DO YOU EVER DO ANYTHING YOURSELF OR DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO SEND YOUR SON TO FIX YOUR PROBLEMS???

GWEN STROKING MORGANA'S FACE AFTER SHE WOKE UP SCREAMING FROM A NIGHTMARE

morgana running down the stairs to beg arthur not to go because she knows he'll die... she cared for him so much why did they had to ruin it

there was supposed to be a "great upheaval" and yet basically nothing changed after this episode... they should have made u*her die instead of nimueh

"he can't die! we haven't done all the things we're meant to!" oh merlin... oh baby my heart breaks for you because you never will...

uther being like "what happened to my son???" you're the one who sent him to fight a magical bloodthirsty beast what did you expect?

"gaius, he's my friend" shut up merlin shut up please

uther stop being tender and gentle towards your son only on his deathbed i am begging you to stop being an asshole

can we talk about how nimueh was and still is a better villain than morgause with only ten minutes of screentime????

gwen talking to arthur while he was passed out... "i know you won't die because i know one you will be king... a much better king than your father... it's what keeps me going" gwen is so good and for what??? only for the whole fandom to hate her

"YOU ARE GOING TO LIVE TO BE THE MAN I'VE SEEN INSIDE YOU, ARTHUR" CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAM

took a pause to have some dinner and play on my phone let's get back to it

gwen's whole speech to a dying arthur is so sweet and hopeful i love her so much

THE KNIGHTS AND THE PEASANT UNDER ARTHUR'S WINDOW HOLDING UP CANDLES!!!!! it reminds me of dumbledore's death fuck

"I WILLINGLY GIVE MY LIFE FOR ARTHUR'S" "HIS LIFE IS WORTH A HUNDRED OF MINE" MERLIN ARE YOU ACTIVELY TRYING TO GIVE ME A HEART ATTACK????

"whose life did you bargain?"
"don't worry, gaius, everything will be alright" because merlin's definition of alright is arthur surviving no matter what CAN YOU SEE WHY I LOVE THEM SO MUCH?

why did merlin look at morgana like that???? she's not evil yet

by the way merlin's hair were awful at the beginning of the season but in this episode it had a serious glow up he finally found out how scissors work

"i think there's someone watching over me, keeping me from harm" no shit, arthur

GWEN'S SMILING AT ARTHUR!!!!!!!!!! god have mercy i love her so much everything she does brings me joy

arthur teasing her to get her all flustered and embarrassed... i hate him

let's discuss this plothole: how did merlin's mother reach camelot something like two hours after arthur woke up when in the ealdor episode they had to travel for two days??

"your destiny is to protect the young pendragon until he sits on the throne and when he does magic can be returned to the realm" kilgarrah stop saying lies you bastard

"merlin, i am you kin" OMG THEY WERE DROPPING HINTS AT DRAGONLORD MERLIN ALL ALONG

uhm angry merlin is... something to behold... i am looking.

"if the balance of the world needs a life, then nimueh must take mine" merlin stop trying to d1e for other people every two seconds

colin's performance... wow

"i must say goodbye to arthur" BEFORE RUNNING AWAY TO GIVE UP HIS LIFE FOR THE SECOND TIME IN TWO DAYS, THE FIRST THING HE DOES IS GOING TO ARTHUR!!!!!! that's it i'm throwing myself off a balcony

he couldn't even face away from the door he couldn't even look at him because he knew this was probably the last time he'd ever see arthur but he's so brave that he found the strength to look at him for the last time!!!!!! and to tell arthur how he believed in him!!!!

"sometimes i wonder if you know who i am" "i know who you are. you're a prat. a royal one" ARTHUR LOOKS AT HIM SO FONDLY IT'S DISGUSTING AND HE HUFFS THIS LITTLE LAUGH AND LOOKS DOWN!!!!!!!!! bashful prince mhwa

this whole conversation is a kick in the gut... the quiet resignation written all over merlin, arthur rare willingness to not shy away from a particularly emotional conversation, this is so painful i can't do this anymore

i am sitting here, literally writing down some of the lines they're saying to each other in my phone's notes so that i will never forget them because this dialogue is just so good, it feels like it's the first time they ever really had a meaningful conversation

THE WAY MERLIN IS FIGHTING BACK TEARS AND ARTHUR LOOKS AT HIM???????????????????????? fuck off and just k1ll me already

gwen staying at hunith's bedside while she's dying... she is so kind and caring i will never stop talking about how much i love her

merlin saying goodbye to his mother STOP YOU'RE TEARING ME APART

HE GAVE HER GAIUS' RABBIT FOOT????????????

almost forgot about how gaius went to the island to sacrifice himself instead of merlin... "you are and always will be the son i never had" he's literally the only good father figure in the whole series despite his many flaws

nimueh is so hot!!! plus after she got over all that revenge bullshit, she didn't want to prevent arthur from becoming king but only use him at her advantage. if only they hadn't killed her off... they wasted her full potential as a villain.

HOMEBOY STRAIGHT UP WENT ALL THUNDER AND STORM ON NIMUEH DJSNSK HE LITERALLY BLEW HER UP WITH A LIGHTING STRIKE JSNXJSNSKSNXJSJXJSKSJXKSKKSKSKSKSKSK

merlin and gaius are so wholesome

so that was season one... wow.

as a whole it's a good season, merlin was undoubtedly the best written character but the others didn't have as much screentime and i think their depiction suffered from it. especially arthur felt to me as if he wasn't in full definition yet, almost incomplete.

thank god it's only the beginning