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This will be my thread for all the dark thoughts I have daily.
I don& #39;t have an outlet, and people get tired of listening and just leaves when it becomes too much.
*WARNING*
Please do not read the tweets in this thread as I do not intend to make anyone feel bad or triggered.
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I don& #39;t have an outlet, and people get tired of listening and just leaves when it becomes too much.
*WARNING*
Please do not read the tweets in this thread as I do not intend to make anyone feel bad or triggered.
And if in case you get overwhelmed by the daily negativity I have in here.
You are free to unfollow me.
Protect your peace of mind.
That matters more.
I apologize in advanced, as I just really have a lot inside me.
Bottled up within the 27 years that I& #39;ve been existing.
You are free to unfollow me.
Protect your peace of mind.
That matters more.
I apologize in advanced, as I just really have a lot inside me.
Bottled up within the 27 years that I& #39;ve been existing.
This isn& #39;t supposed to make people pity me or anything.
Everything inside this thread is just me taking it all out, and hoping it& #39;ll help me feel a little bit better.
A part of me, only a few knows about.
A part that even I, don& #39;t fully understand yet.
Everything inside this thread is just me taking it all out, and hoping it& #39;ll help me feel a little bit better.
A part of me, only a few knows about.
A part that even I, don& #39;t fully understand yet.
I guess I& #39;ll start on what I feel today, and at this very time.
I feel worthless, empty, sad.
I know this is all my fault.
Every bad thing that happened to me was all my fault.
If only I was mentally stable.
If only I was living a normal life.
I feel worthless, empty, sad.
I know this is all my fault.
Every bad thing that happened to me was all my fault.
If only I was mentally stable.
If only I was living a normal life.
I have different threads that I update from time to time.
One is about my daily updates about myself,
One for my forever love,
and this one, i think this one will be updated more than the others.
One is about my daily updates about myself,
One for my forever love,
and this one, i think this one will be updated more than the others.
We all have our different ways to cope with our struggles, our illness, our personal battles.
This is mine, as I felt no one& #39;s willing to hear me anymore.
Dealing with all of this alone is hard, but I& #39;d rather have it than to lose people that I care about because of this madness.
This is mine, as I felt no one& #39;s willing to hear me anymore.
Dealing with all of this alone is hard, but I& #39;d rather have it than to lose people that I care about because of this madness.
And before anyone make hateful statements as to why I have this instead of sharing my sentiments towards our government.
My friends know where I stand, and I hate how this country is falling into ruins because of people not using their power in the right places and reasons.
My friends know where I stand, and I hate how this country is falling into ruins because of people not using their power in the right places and reasons.
And if anyone asks what& #39;s the purpose of this.
Someday, I& #39;ll tell myself,
I made it.
I lived.
I survived.
Even after having all of it.
I& #39;m alive.
Someday, I& #39;ll tell myself,
I made it.
I lived.
I survived.
Even after having all of it.
I& #39;m alive.
You wish all of it is just a Bad Dream?
Oh no it isn& #39;t.
You& #39;re the one who& #39;s Bad, Albert.
All the pain and regrets you carry right now?
You deserve it.
Every single thing.
Oh no it isn& #39;t.
You& #39;re the one who& #39;s Bad, Albert.
All the pain and regrets you carry right now?
You deserve it.
Every single thing.
Is this life still worth living?
I feel, people just throws me away easily when I& #39;m not needed anymore.
When they had too much of me.
All the bad things I brought speaks more to them than the good ones I did (if there& #39;s really any).
I feel, people just throws me away easily when I& #39;m not needed anymore.
When they had too much of me.
All the bad things I brought speaks more to them than the good ones I did (if there& #39;s really any).
Up again at this time of the day as usual.
This day, this time...
ASFDJIDNSGXLAMAVZIA
I hope someday, I can wake up again peacefully.
I miss the simple things in life.
Being happy, genuinely smiling.
When will it be back?
This day, this time...
ASFDJIDNSGXLAMAVZIA
I hope someday, I can wake up again peacefully.
I miss the simple things in life.
Being happy, genuinely smiling.
When will it be back?
How does it feel to weep for 45 days straight?
Tiring isn& #39;t it?
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Tiring isn& #39;t it?
It& #39;s not endless but there& #39;s more to come.
You keep on faking it, looking for ways to pass the time.
Spending time watching tv series, animé, playing games, looking for new memes.
Did it help? Yes, quite a bit.
But it& #39;s still not enough to mask all of the chaos inside you, right?
Spending time watching tv series, animé, playing games, looking for new memes.
Did it help? Yes, quite a bit.
But it& #39;s still not enough to mask all of the chaos inside you, right?
I remember the last time I was asked by someone in the office several weeks ago.
"Okay ka lang?"
And after 5 seconds, I started bawling my eyes out.
I never really did that before, but it was just too much that day.
A simple question which made me cry nonstop for 1 hour.
"Okay ka lang?"
And after 5 seconds, I started bawling my eyes out.
I never really did that before, but it was just too much that day.
A simple question which made me cry nonstop for 1 hour.
People were confused, as they aren& #39;t used to me being like that.
Some showed care, but I remained tight-lipped and just let it all out until I felt blank.
I was one of the jolly persons in the team. Always smiling, laughing, and throwing corny jokes whenever I have free time.
Some showed care, but I remained tight-lipped and just let it all out until I felt blank.
I was one of the jolly persons in the team. Always smiling, laughing, and throwing corny jokes whenever I have free time.
Days went by and I became aloof to everyone around me.
But some people still tried hard to reach out.
Some of the guys from my team gave me daily fist bumps.
Some pats my head.
Some even offered a group hug. (It was surprising as it came from the people I didn& #39;t like before.)
But some people still tried hard to reach out.
Some of the guys from my team gave me daily fist bumps.
Some pats my head.
Some even offered a group hug. (It was surprising as it came from the people I didn& #39;t like before.)
I miss having someone to talk to.
Someone who listens.
Someone who cares.
Someone who& #39;s still there even if I know he& #39;s getting tired of my daily rants, worries and pain.
But for now, i& #39;ll just leave most of it here. This platform won& #39;t answer me but it won& #39;t leave either.
Someone who listens.
Someone who cares.
Someone who& #39;s still there even if I know he& #39;s getting tired of my daily rants, worries and pain.
But for now, i& #39;ll just leave most of it here. This platform won& #39;t answer me but it won& #39;t leave either.
I hope someday, you will realize what it& #39;ll cost you.
For what you& #39;ve been planning to do all this time.
And when that day comes, I sincerely hope...
It& #39;s not too late.
For what you& #39;ve been planning to do all this time.
And when that day comes, I sincerely hope...
It& #39;s not too late.
HAHAHA AYOKO NA
Buried my face in my pillow to muffle my screams.
What does life has in store for me?
Obviously more pain.
I have been living with it since I became conscious about life.
Specifically during second grade, I was around 6-7 years old.
That& #39;s when all the sh*t started.
Obviously more pain.
I have been living with it since I became conscious about life.
Specifically during second grade, I was around 6-7 years old.
That& #39;s when all the sh*t started.
From thay day forward, I started losing everything.
I& #39;m still breathing today, but with all the pain l got since that day up to now.
I lost count how many times I died and felt something was killed inside me over and over again.
I& #39;m still breathing today, but with all the pain l got since that day up to now.
I lost count how many times I died and felt something was killed inside me over and over again.
I deserve nothing except this unending cycle of agony.
Is this just a series of challenge thrown at me because "I can handle it"?
Most of the things I experienced happened because of my poor choices in life.
Is this just a series of challenge thrown at me because "I can handle it"?
Most of the things I experienced happened because of my poor choices in life.
I actually thought I finally broke the cycle.
I became truly happy, fulfilled, really living my life.
I never thought life was just fooling me again.
I really didn& #39;t deserve that kind of happiness.
As it was taken from me just like everything.
I became truly happy, fulfilled, really living my life.
I never thought life was just fooling me again.
I really didn& #39;t deserve that kind of happiness.
As it was taken from me just like everything.
There& #39;s only one thing left here.
Why not just that?
Just take that from me and finally end this vicious cycle.
Why not just that?
Just take that from me and finally end this vicious cycle.
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About how I got to where I am right now with my Mental Health illness. https://twitter.com/AlbertManahan18/status/1247585574468194305?s=19">https://twitter.com/AlbertMan...
About how I got to where I am right now with my Mental Health illness. https://twitter.com/AlbertManahan18/status/1247585574468194305?s=19">https://twitter.com/AlbertMan...
