#detransdayofvisibility I am a bit late on this but still, I want to say something. So, I have been of testosterone for 13 months. I did not refeminise. I did notice some fat redistribution, but that's it. I stopped taking photos of myself soon after finding out that it was

testosterone that was changing my body, not age alone. I stopped testosterone after I was informed of very basic stuff, including hair loss. This information reached me too late - almost 7 years after starting testosterone. I thought testosterone only stopped periods and made

some body hair grow and those effects will vanish once I got off of it. Now, more than a year later, I am still hairy and my period has not come back, despite even taking medication to get it back. I didn't know that it was testosterone that was changing my face and in fact, I

wrote a lot of statuses on my social media with old pictures of myself, saying that I miss myself. Testosterone destroyed my thick (and quite unique for a white girl) hair. I miss it so much! I am angry for seeking professional help as it got me into an even worse position.

I did not have gender dysphoria. I was a girl who did not fit the stereotype of a girl 100% but I was still very feminine. I am not butch. Nor a lesbian. Not even a tomboy. But people assumed that I was.

The worst thing about it is that I never wanted to change my body in an artificial manner, even if it were for the better. I feel very strongly about wanting a natural body and yet, my body is artificially changed, for the worst even.