MY COVID THREAD: I’m lucky. I’m also scared. And mad. And sad. #COVID19Pandemic

I’m on day three of quarantine from family with mild symptoms. I’m lucky.

I’m not sick enough or at risk enough for a test. So I wait, pay way too much attention to each pain, breath and cough, and I worry.

But my doctor says I am sick enough for it to knock me down, which it has. I’m lucky.

I know I’m lucky. Very lucky. I don’t have a fever, a cough, or trouble breathing. Yet.

I know people in our country are dying of this thing I may have, by the auditorium full, every day.

I know people are sick, far sicker than me, and many more are headed that way. I’m lucky.

I long for the days last week when I was just crawling up the walls because our normal was disrupted and grousing about the lack of effort from my kids’ schools to keep them engaged and educated.

I have two friends I’m deeply worried about - one who ended up in the ER, one who had to go to urgent care. Both couldn’t breathe. Both now wait for tests or worse. Hopefully better.

I try to work, but it’s hard to concentrate and hard to sit up for long, even though my symptoms are mild. And I’m lucky.

I try not to be scared. For some reason, seeing the death of the 52-year-old signer from Fountains of Wayne made me scared. I’m 49.

Once, I saw @fountainsofwayn cover Kermit the Frog’s “Rainbow Connection.” Wish I was back at the Paradise to thank him for that. RIP, Adam.

I’m mad. Mad I can’t get a test because my symptoms are mild. Mad that my government’s lack of preparation means my doctor has to choose.

I’m sad I can’t help my wife and boys through this nightmare beyond text and FaceTime because just being next to them could hurt them. Or worse.

I’m mad I can’t even pet Jedi - a healer if ever there was one - but a possible transmitter to the rest of my world.

I’m mad at you, @realDonaldTrump and you, @MassGovernor for leaning too far toward letting America have what they want and not shutting it down sooner and putting more people at risk - even now.

Speaking of which, @CharlieBakerMA: Gun shops are essential? You’re nuts if you truly thought that. Or you’re a craven politician if you didn’t think it but still did it to keep your base happy - even if to look like you really wanted to but didn’t in the end.

I’m sad there’s a blue and red split on this thing. Seriously? Science is science, peoples.

I’m sad we don’t have Bush or Clinton or Obama or Reagan - They would have pulled us together, not split us apart.

I’m glad for @NYGovCuomo. He’s a real leader and his press briefings will go down as some of the best government communications in history.

So I’m lucky. Scared. Mad. Sad. But I’m also hopeful.

Hopeful I’ll stay mild in everything but disposition and my family’s sacrifices will protect them.

Hopeful my friends will be ok - the two who probably have it and the more who will soon - because we still have amazing health care and nurses and docs who will keep putting people first.

Hopeful our country will see what leaders really are, that the media will tell the full story of how our government failed us on a catastrophic scale.

Hopeful because I have a thriving business that has been hit harder than this that is led by an amazing team that is working incredibly hard and taking care of each other - always. , @MelwoodGlobal, @johnboit, @katedonaghey, @bridgetannpeery, @racheliwells & @Karissa_Hand

And I’m hopeful our world will find a way back to a new normal. Together. Soon. Because that’s what we do.

Stay safe, friends. And be thankful if you, like me, are lucky.