Puro gulo, hidwaan at pambabatikos. I wanted to get 'involved', gusto ko din i-voice out ung 'pinaglalaban' ng marami. Nanggagalaiti ako to be exact. Andaming mali eh, sobrang dami! But you know what?

Everytime I'm seeing my mum holding the bible, nasa kwarto niya, reading and praying, tuwing kakain kami, mananalangin ung 5 at 6 yrs old kong pamangkin, "Lord, sana po mawala na ung covid-19 sa mundo, para makapaglaro na po kami sa labas, at makauwi na po si mama dito sa bahay.

Hindi ko mapigilang umiyak, gusto ko lang naman mamuhay ng normal kasama ang pamilya at bigyan sila ng magandang buhay. This isn't the life I've wanted for them.

So I desperately cry out to God. Sa kanya ko binuhos lahat ng galit at sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon, "Lord iligtas mo kami," "Lord, undeserving kami but please save us from this pandemic," "Lord sobrang gulo na, please move in everyone's heart." He is the God of miracle.

As much as I want to questioned everyone, as much as I want to please everyone na gumising sa bangungot na 'to, I can't eh. But only God can.

Kaya please, I know where the anger is coming from, hindi ako mabait na tao, but from what I've been through, God is always in control. I'm a living testimony of God's grace and mercy. Kahit ilang minuto lang, please pray. Kung nagawa natin noong 'Taal eruption' why not now?

And before I end this thread, I want you to know being healthy doesn't only mean physically.

Being mentally and emotionally unstable, it is very unhealthy, I want you to know that.