Journaling is powerful. I was just reminded of where I was mentally a year ago & man was it a struggle. It still is. I love the people God put in my life. He really plans everything out so meticulously. I’m thankful.

Right now is like a really really weird time.. and there’s so little we can really do (besides #StayHome ) to change what’s going on around us. If you struggle mentally with anything, right now is especially really rough.

I personally don’t seek help when I need it, I know I should, maybe it’s pride? Man I don’t know, but I don’t. And it’s weird when people see me strugglling and try to help.. I don’t really know what to do with it.. it’s not a role I take on well.

With that being said, last year around this time I was not in a good headspace & someone super unexpected took the time to reach out.. I didnt know what to do with that & was like super reserved at first & then completely just poured my mess out lol

I felt so seen & i’m weirdly not used to that. I’m an empath so I’m really good at taking on other people issues and ignoring mine publicly. Don’t get me wrong i’m quick to say i’m going through it, but not go into what that entails. That’s more seen than I like to be.

But in that time of being seen, I said my peice & immediately regretted it and felt like “okay I know she asked, but like girl she don’t really want to know all your problems” I assume when people ask “How are you” it’s just polite, not genuine. I was wrong.

@AshlyISOfficial I really really want to just thank you. I went back and listened to my audio journal and when I tell you I completely changed my outlook on life after our conversation. I still struggled & still do now, especially now, but I could hear that I was really trying.

I just went back and read exactly what was said and who would’ve known that I needed those words now more than ever. My own personal problems were real and valid, but thinking about life NOW, they were so small. Right now is the perfect time to reflect on ourselves.

All we have is time to ourselves. Self care is so important (and not just face masks ) We have time to talk to ourselves and take care of our mental health. We have been reminded that time is so fickle, TIME IS NOT REAL. Literally what we do with right now is all that matters.

Protecting ourselves today is all we have. Today remind yourself to be still. Be grateful. Be HAPPY. Be mindful of your thoughts. This is getting really cliche omg.. Please just remember to take care of yourself.

Like I said right now is a weird time & I’m taking it day by day because I really have no choice but to. God has placed amazing people in my life. I love every single last one of them. Check on your loved ones people. Please.

ALSO, journal. Seriously all of this just came from me listening to myself from a year ago! When life seemed soooo weird and unmanageable and blah blah... We are legit on lockdown right now, most of us at a complete halt. Issues I had last year mean NOTHING now.

People are dying. This is not to invalidate the issues you or I may still be facing, but we have no choice, but to look at things differently, because no way life can go back to “normal” after this.

Alright this is going to turn into a never ending tangent, so i’m going to stop lol, but everything I said stands. Write shit down. Record yourself if you’re like me. Wash your damn hands. Disinfect your space. STAY TF HOME. Pray. (if that’s your thing)