I've had some QRT's & a DM about whether or not I include those with depression/mental illness in my tweet thread from earlier. The short answer is: no. But I have significantly more to say on the matter, because if you are in distress, there is more you need to consider.

First, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 18 years ago. I am 31. My most recent suicidal spiral was less than a week ago.

I know what it's like to feel pain, to be overwhelmed by toxicity, hopelessness, depression, and rage.

I'm quitting my current job due to that.

In life, when dealing with mental illness, you have to evaluate what situations you can or cannot tolerate for a given amount of time. You have to first evaluate what is intolerable about the situation, and get at the core of that honestly, without sugar-coating anything.

So in that vein, if you suffer from mental or physical duress due to Wonho's abscence, & the thought of supporting an OT6 comeback truly makes you feel horrible, I want you to ask yourself a few questions.

First, I want you to think about your TL. Is it positive? Negative?

Do you feel distress before you log on to Twitter, or only after? Do you feel good up until you see a rage-filled or despair-filled post, and then find yourself also in a spiral?

If you answer that things are negative, & you are affected by those posts, then before you +

Assign those emotions to yourself, personally, being upset by an OT6 comeback, take a pause and evaluate just how much of that is you and how much of it is charismatic negativity.

I ask you to get off of Twitter for 2 days and see if you can't find joy in Monsta X again.

Watch the 5 member, 6 member, and 7 member content. If you can't find joy in the 5 or 6 member content, and you're out of Twitter, then it's time to ask yourself whether or not being a part of this fandom at all is safe for you anymore.

You have to put your mental health first.

Sometimes putting your mental health first means facing extremely painful choices. People feel pain when they leave toxic partners, family, jobs, especially sensitive people with mental illness.

I have left fandoms that I lived and died for because I was dying internally.

So I say that to tell you that it's okay to leave if it's too much, or if it's too hard. But I promise that for a lot of you who feel it's too hard to stomach an OT6 comeback, if you are already in a tough mental state, you are especially susceptible to negativity and Twitter +

as a very negative, easy thing to latch on to that gives your depression and anxiety a foothold.

I think a lot of us would be more mentally able to support an OT6 comeback and patiently wait for WH if it weren't for the violent mood swings this fandom experiences based on poor

emotional management exhibited by accounts with influence.

So before determining that you can't handle a comeback where we are still waiting for wonho, I'd like you to leave Twitter for a few days and only experience kpop without commentary. If you still can't stand it...

...Then it's time to exit the fandom. You can't keep exposing yourself to something that painful that you have no control over. It's going to tear you apart and continue to make your mental health deteriorate.

I will never fault anyone for leaving in those circumstances.

We have to take care of ourselves. I encourage all of you to take care of yourselves. I hope everyone can learn to practice mindfulness, and learn to question emotionally charged statements as to whether they are feelings or if they are facts.

This is not a nice thread. These are not comforting things to hear, and I know this is all hard to swallow. I don't want to be the one to say it, and I know this will incite anger and hurt. But with mental illness, we have to choose the best way for it to be managed.

This is a choice some of us will have to make. But please, please evaluate whether its your environment or the situation that is taking the toll on you. Monsta X would never want us to suffer for them. But is it them we suffer for, or is it the toxicity here that makes us suffer?

I wish all of you well. Please take care.