okay hang on im still on my #caryl bullshit. i have somewhat of an observation and my thoughts are jumbled and MESSY so be warned. so. we know carol loves daryl, would kill for him even, but imo and from my perspective daryl has always been the more visibly IN love one. (1/?)

daryl follows her around like a puppy, constantly staring at her, always looking as though he’s got st he wants to say to her, but.. won’t. (that’s why i feel him asking her to stay n not go back on the boat was such a HUGE deal. not to ment. the soft ‘why’d you go?’ in s7) (2/?)

however carol seems more standoffish, the “lone wolf” attitude probably dating back to trauma from when rick banished her from the group, and causing her to feel that some of the choices she makes will alienate her from the people she cares about - again. (hence s10e14) (3/?)

occasionally this shines through with daryl: her line to him, “you don’t know me”, or her pursuit of a man outside of the original “family” who doesn’t necessarily know how “messy” her past is and loves her anyway. or maybe even her encouraging daryl to carry on w c0nnie. (4/?)

but in brief moments during s10 you see carol’s walls begin to crumble. in ghosts we see carol dreaming about daryl as her husband. we see her turn her friendship bracelet over n over on her wrist, sitting at daryl’s place, wondering if she’s destroyed their friendship. (5/?)

“i don’t want to lose you too.” in s2e9 (triggerfinger) carol says this to daryl and asks him not to pull away. but now it’s carol that’s been pulling away. carol running because she doesn’t think she belongs, or she thinks that she’s not good enough to be w TF or daryl. (6/?)

daryl once thought that he wasn’t good enough. “you’re every bit as good as them.” it was carol who reminded him. n who’s the one that recognizes carol’s behavior now, tries to keep her there? daryl. who reminds her she belongs, has a place and can tell him anything? daryl. (7/?)

n who is she most afraid of losing when her own subconscious confronts her in the form of alpha in s10e14? still daryl! “i don’t want to lose you too.” carol has been building up walls, trying to convince herself that she isn’t good enough to be w any of them but esp daryl. (8/?)

and not to mention her playing pretend. when carol was together w the king those walls were still standing tall as ever. but there’s someone she can’t bullshit. someone she can’t pretend in front of. and someone who is trying desperately to bring down those walls. (9/?)

“Sometimes you have to let the cracks happen to let the light in”. aaaand who has been carol’s light for several seasons? you guessed it. (10/?)

carol is finally going through a healing process, wanting to turn to DARYL specifically after all of this time, instead of hiding n running n pushing everyone away like she did before. really big for not only carol’s development but leaves caryl clues too... (11/?)

in conclusion, i feel like something is about to change drastically between them. but not in the negative way that some people think... carol let down your damn walls for him #carylisendgame (12/12)