You know, I think maybe, just maybe that I know what I want to do in collage.
I think I want to study Psychology.
Often times when people around me complain about their problems I think that sometimes I manage to say the right words that kinda click something in them and

It’s weird, for a guy who often says he despises the company of others, when I’m the one helping people I don’t mind it so much.
I think the reason for this would be it makes me feel a little less... useless? irrelevant? Unimportant? Well regardless of what the word is

For some reason I feel satisfied with the end result, and if said persons ever need more help I some reason feel compelled to help them.
Maybe I can make up for all of my toxic years in middle school.

Now that I think about it maybe that’s why I don’t have friends right now, because a dumb 10-12 year old me was so far up his a** he couldn’t see that people were annoyed with him, and now, that’s the only way I think people see me as, a nuisance.

Although maybe some people don’t think this way initially, but my subconscious keeps screaming this at me, and to be honest? I like him to shut up for a bit and let me just leave the house without thinking of everything that could go wrong.

I want to meet people, Online and In real life, i want to Yell our at the top of my lungs who I really am, tell my family about being a gay furry atheist and hope they accept me for who I am

I want to ask out a guy who I know is straight but if Fire emblem has taught me a anything, even if there’s a 1% chance to hit AND crit, there’s still a chance that that miracle could happen and then all of the pieces of life will start to come together for me

Maybe once this whole quarantine thing is over I’ll try to go to meet ups in bound brook to see if there are actually good people here among the ones who don’t know any better and

When I do run into these people I can help them see the light of the goal that I’ve gone so long without.

Huh? I feel a surprising amount better after writing this! Could be the fact that I’m laying down with My dog but regardless I feel great! It’s weird but I like it.

I don’t know if I have anyone in particular to thank but I suppose just anyone who’s taken time out of their day to have a conversation with me.

Starting today I want to try something, I personally don’t want anyone to feel this kind of self-hate the way I’ve gone through and sometimes talking to someone getting paid to give therapy isn’t always what works, sometimes you need someone just a tad bit younger than you

To make you think “Huh? Why dident I think of that sooner?”
So My DMs will always be open for anybody who just wants to talk and chat about The big Puzzle that is life.
#Furry
#LGBTQ
#Beyourself

And just in case you see someone who could use a younger shoulder to lean on @silverdollar721 is the name, so just call and I’ll be there ASAP.
Goodnight Y’all and have a great life+