most of you don't know what self destructive behaviour is- cutting off your family & friends unintentionally cuz you think too little of yourself to be worthy enough for them, moving away, wasting your money on drugs

Realising that I'm the problem but I don't wanna change it cuz that's how it helps me feel better and escape reality.

lying about how I'm doing has grown so much on me it doesn't even seem harmful to myself anymore

I have unhealthy addictions and habits but I'm way past the point of worrying about death.
I could be dying rn and I still wouldn't give two fucks about myself as long as everyone else around me is happy

I die a little everyday