it’s all namjoon whore this and namjoon whore that but how about namjoon whore who cheats on his husband with the college boy next door and ruins their marriage?

yes, i hate infidelity, but you know what i love? angst. and namjoon loves sex, and sometimes, his husband hoseok, is too busy, or too tired, and namjoon is Over It. so imagine how thrilled he is when he catches their new neighbor taehyung practically drooling over him!!!

hoseok is absolutely heartbroken when he finds out, too, tears streaming down his face when he finds his husband underneath the boy who he just invited over for dinner only two nights ago.

namjoon doesn’t even realize the weight of the situation until hoseok is crumpling to the floor, hand over his mouth to muffle the sobs that are forcing themselves out of his body. he practically throws taehyung off of him, and tries to go to comfort hobi, to apologize, but his

husband is pushing him away, saying he doesn’t wanna be touched by namjoon, doesnt even wanna look at him and oh.

oh god he had fucked up. he had fucked up so so bad. and he had to fix things, but HOW can he fix things when he just made his one true love lose all trust in him??

namjoon kicks taehyung out, practically banning the college student from ever entering their home again. and hoseok kicks namjoon out of their bedroom. makes him sleep in their guest room.

they don’t talk for days, then weeks, and then it’s two months before hoseok comes into

namjoon’s room in tears. because he doesn’t wanna get a divorce!! he loves namjoon so much, and namjoon says he loves him back, but he doesn’t BELIEVE him anymore, no matter how much he wants to, and he just??? doesn’t know how?

so they go to therapy. constant, constant therapy. and namjoon feels so bad because he has so much love for hoseok, and it breaks his heart seeing him cry at each and every one of their sessions.

“it- it’s just like.. i don’t even know who you are, anymore, namjoon.”

and it hits kinda hard bc,, namjoon doesn’t know who he is anymore, either?

he says he loves hobi, yes, but then he did one of the worst possible things to him and... and that’s not love. that’s not Him.

“then maybe you should introduce yourselves again,” their therapist

suggests. they both stare at him in confusion, and he sighs. “sometimes the core of these kinds of issues within couples is the fact that they’ve lost touch with themselves, and as a result, with each other. so maybe it’d be best for one of you to leave the house for a while,

then, on a set date, you pretend to “meet” at a bar or café, and then get to know each other again. rekindle that spark you seem to be missing.”

and yeah... yeah, that may work!

will continue when my head no longer hurts and i have slept for an eternity bc it’s,, 3 in the morning