Finding Our Normal
A #kacchako thread
Prequel to Milkman Kirishima

Cw: heavy angst with happy ending, marital and fertility issues, mental health struggles, panic attacks... Nsfw, sex work and drugs, exploring bdsm

I will tag if anything gets too heavy

From the outside Ochako's life seemed perfect. She lived in a nice house in a quiet neighbourhood. She had married her high school sweet heart right after graduation. Katsuki same from a rich family and had a great job. He was able to support not only themselves but her parents

Ochako's friends all envied her and thet told her how lucky she was all the time. She didn't feel lucky, but how could she complain about anything when they were gawking over the new necklace Katsuki bought her last week?

Katsuki constantly spoiled her with presents, if Ochako looked at some thing for too long he would buy it for her.

Ochako hated it. She hated all the flowers, every new dress, and each sparkling gem. She hated them because she knew Katsuki didn't get them to show his love

Ochako hated the gifts because they were a silent apology. They were a symbol for the thing Katsuki wasn't strong enough to say to her every month when listen to her crying alone in the bathroom. A weak apology for just waiting outside instead of holding her in his arms.

How could Ochako tell her friends that her "perfect marriage" only happened because of a stupid mistake. That Katsuki only married her because they couldn't embarrass their parents like that. They got married a few months after they lost their virginity to each other in a hurry

To prepare for the baby that never came.

They weren't officially trying to have a baby, they had never sit down to discuss it, but after 5 years together and no children people were starting to talk.

Katsuki blamed himself and Ochako blamed him too.

How could she not? She had seven sibling, more aunts and uncles and cousins than she could count... Katsuki was an only child... It had to be his fault.

They didn't talk about until one day Katsuki drank too much and he hid his face in Ochako's breasts and cried. Apologizing over and over.

"W-we can try something different" Katsuki sobbed holding her so tightly she could barely breathe

"If I can't give you a child then I'll find someone who can. I'll do anything, /anything/ just don't leave me."

"I would never leave you Katsuki" she responded, running her fingers through his hair. Her words didn't sound loving, they felt cold.

Katsuki was determined to make

Her happy. He was Bakugou fucking Katsuki. He was the best at everything and he would be the best husband.

If Katsuki had had a brother he would've just asked him for help, but he didn't so, even though it made him want to vomit, he asked the closest thing he had to a brother.

"You want me to do what?!"

"You heard me you damn nerd. I need you to fuck my wife and get her pregnant"

"H-how can you ask that? I don't understand, I-"

"Please don't make me explain..." Katsuki whispered, sinking lower into Deku's couch. "I wouldn't be asking if it wasn't important. I don't know what else to do"

Izuku shifted uncomfortably, his children running around the room.

"I'll have to talk to Melissa... I don't think she'll be very keen to the idea..."

"I'll pay you" Katsuki said through gritted teeth

"Kacchan, I don't want your money" Izuku responded softly and hesitantly patted Katsuki's back "I know this was hard to ask"

The next week izuku was shuffling awkwardly into Katsuki's house to fuck /his/ wife. He gritted his teeth, unable to process all the confusing emotions he was feeling. It hurt more than anything. They were only doing this be because he has failed to provide, but this would fix it

"Oh Izuku, what a surprise"

"I-it is?" Izuku stammered looking at Katsuki and then back at Ochako "didn't Kacchan tell you?"

"Tell me what...?" Ochako frowned

"I brought him here to... Fix our problem" Katsuki spat, shoving his hands until his pockets "I'm going to a bar... I'll be back in an hour"

"Katsuki what are you talking about?" Ochako asked but Katsuki left without looking back.

***

Katsuki stumbled back home 5 hours later and found Ochako waiting for him with her arms crossed.

"You have some /fucking/ nerve, Katsuki." she hissed, her voice wavering

"Hah?"

"How dare you ask Izuku to come have /sex/ with me! We never talked about that.

I never agreed to that."

"I said I'd find someone to get you pregnant and I did!" Katsuki slurred, grabbing a cigarette

"You could've asked me! You /embarrassed/ me, Katsuki!"

"Embarrassed you? You want to talk about embarrassment? I humiliated myself asking Deku to fuck-

You so you could have a baby and now you're yelling me at!"

"I am /not/ yelling!" Ochako yelled standing up to jab a finger against Katsuki's chest "You're such an asshole!"

"Oh /I'm/ the asshole? That's fucking rich. Christ, woman, I'm doing this for /you/!"

"I never asked for this" Ochako screamed, tears overflowing "I don't want this!"

"Then what the fuck do you want?! Tell me and I'll get it for you!"

"I want you to talk to me!" she sobbed, punching his chest

"I talk to you"

"Not about anything important!"

"Fuck fine, I'm sorry" Katsuki sighed wrapping his arms around Ochako as her tears soaked his shirt "you want to talk let's talk. Don't cry"

"I ha-hate you" she sobbed "You're s-so mean and s-selfish"

"I know" Katsuki whispered pressing his lips against the top of her head.

They stood in silence until Ochako stopped crying.

"So... Did you fuck him?"

"I did"

"Oh"

"He was better than you"

"Jesus Christ, Ochako!" Katsuki hissed pushing her away "What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"He fucked me better than you ever have!" Ochako said again

"Shut up!" Katsuki growled, pushing past her into the kitchen "I don't wanna hear it!"

"He made me cum twice before he even put it in" she continued following after him "he actually put my needs before his own"

"Shut the fuck up!" Katsuki gripped the counter, he was shaking

"Izuku made me feel better than I have in /years/. No wonder Mr. Yagi promoted him over yo-"

"ENOUGH!" Katsuki yelled turning to face her, his face red as tears brimmed at the corners of his eyes.

They glared at each other for a second before Ochako dropped her gaze and her eyes widened.

"You liked that?"

"What? Of course I didn't like that!"

"You're hard" Ochako walked forwards and grabbed Katsuki's erection roughly and he moaned at the contact "You liked that."

"Sh-shut up"

"You like it when I tell you how good Izuku fucked me?" She purred, stroking him through his pants "you've been rivals for years, how are you getting off to that? You're a pervert, Katsuki"

Katsuki groaned and let his head fall forwards "I-it's not like that"

"Then what's it like, Katsuki? Explain it to me"

"I-I don't know. I don't understand what I'm feeling! I don't know why I got hard. I don't know why the idea of someone else fucking you turns me on. /Fuck/ I don't know!"

Ochako let go and held Katsuki's face in her hands.

"We need to talk about things" she said softly as Katsuki reached up and grabbed her hand hand "I need you to be open and honest with me. I want to make things work, but you need to work with me, ok?"

Katsuki looked into his wife's eyes and sighed "yeah... Yeah ok"

"I'm sorry I said I hated you. I don't hate you..."

"Me too... I -uh- I'm sorry I mean..."

They talked until the sun started to rise and Katsuki had to go to work. He was meaner to Izuku than usual that day but Izuku didn't mind.

In two weeks when Ochako cried in the bathroom Katsuki opened the door and held her tight. Instead of buying her a new dress they went

Out on a date and Katsuki smiled as he watched her eat nearly a dozen cookies while taking shots.

"I just want to make cookies for someone" she sobbed in the car home "I want to take care of someone and I want to be called mommy I... I..."

Katsuki shushed her and held her hand as she cried.

"You and Izuku can... You can try again"

Ochako sniffed and looked at him with bloodshot eyes "Really?"

"Yeah, really"

"Are you ok with that?"

"I want you to be happy, round cheeks"

"Kaaaatsukiii"

Izuku came over every two weeks for the next 6 months before he sat Katsuki down.

"I... I can't keep doing this" Izuki said rubbing the back of his neck "this isn't working"

"What? You know it can take time! You can't back out now!"

"It's been 6 months... I have a wife..."

"Deku please, Ochako wants this so badly. I don't have anyone else I can ask..."

"Talk to Shoto"

"What? No! I'm not asking that half n half bastard-"

"He knows people Kacchan... You can hire someone to do this." Izuku shoved a glossy business card into his hands.

"I know you don't think so, but he's your friend too. He can help you."

"God dammit..."

***

It took Katsuki about a week to work up the nerve to call Shoto and the rich bastard send a car to pick him up so they could "catch up". Katsuki felt sick as he sat uncomfortably in the sleek black car that had shown up less than an hour later.

"Rich motherfucker. Showing off"

Katsuki scowled the whole ride to the Todoroki estate, regretting that he called Shoto in the first place. The Todoroki's were so rich it was scary, they could get away with murder if they wanted to. It was obvious that the family was involved in some sketchy shit.

Katsuki hasn't talked to Shoto since their high school reunion, when the rich son of a bitch showed up high off his ass making a huge scene, yelling about his terrible father. Deku had made some excuse for Shoto, but Katsuki had opted to steer clear of him ever since.

Shoto was waiting in the driveway when Katsuki arrived, his face expressionless.

"Half n half" Katsuki grunted, nodding as he got out of the car.

"Good to see you Katsuki" Shoto nodded back "Izuku filled me in more or less, hope you don't mine"

"Gonna kill that damn nerd.."

"I don't know why you're embarrassed, fertility issues happen more often than you'd think" Shoto continued, leading Katsuki into his ridiculously large house "My father has several prostitutes that can be of service to you. I couldn't find any that really looked like you..."

"Gee thanks" Katsuki grumbled and turned Shoto out for a second, shoving in hands into his pockets. The whole situation was making him uncomfortable.

"...the issue might be with Ochako..."

"The fuck did you say?"