COVID-19 Home Quarantine Diary Thread!
Day 001/???

Because why the fuck not?
Just made myself a PB&J for the first time in I have no idea how long. Never was wild about them, but suddenly felt like I wanted one. Had to use cherry preserves, but hey. Not bad.
Day 002/???

Took a drive around 8PM to get gas (promised my mother I'd fill the tank) and indulge in a quick pickup order from @CVTSoftServe (happy 6th birthday!), because they're the best, and I needed a moment out of the house. Eeriest LA streets I've ever driven on.
Day 003/???

Washed my hair and finally got some laundry done; otherwise accomplished very little, which is already taking a toll. Normally this would be my "Monday" back at work, and I'm used to walking an average of 25 miles in 5 days at said job alone. Must walk tomorrow.
Day 004/???

Got to talk to someone I really had been needing to, which helped a lot, even if it could only be via Skype. Did a perfectly timed essentials grocery run for the apartment. Cooked an excellent pasta dish for myself. That about sums it up.
Day 005/???

Finally got to go for a long walk, up to the old '66 Batcave, which you can get to just by walking up my street for a ways. Weather was perfect; I've never breathed clearer air in LA in my life. People outside were friendly from good distance, saw many good doggos.
Day 006/???

Finally filed my taxes. I realize there's already an extension in effect, but I'm actually getting something back (likely for the last time, given the garbage year ahead of us), and I'm gonna need it now. Sigh. Remember when I used to think I'd ever travel again?
Day 007/???

I've already fallen behind on this because time doesn't feel real anymore, and remembering what happened on which day even two days ago is a challenge. I do know that on this day my roommate and I took a long walk in the evening, which was nice.
Day 008/???

Watching my step counter numbers dwindle so extremely has been disheartening; I'm used to walking about 25 miles in 5 days at my job, but as of today I've been out of work for a week. My sleep schedule is also, though never great, entirely shot to shit now!
Day 009/???

This was yesterday, right? Right. I managed to get a couple chores around the apartment done, and Skyped with my Mom, and my friend Manny, which I think was probably good for all three of us. Otherwise pretty much just more moping around.
Day 010/???

Today! I know what day it is now! A couple of 1,000 piece puzzles featuring two of my favorite things -- books and cats -- finally arrived today, so I'm stoked to start one of those ASAP. Took a short walk, and the LA air quality remains insanely great.
Day 011/???

It really is frightening what this whole experience is doing to my perception of time, and apparently that of almost everyone else. Anyway, ordered in Tatsu ramen for myself and the roommates, and it was the most delicious possible decision.
Day 012/???

Actually put makeup on for the second time in two weeks! Went out to try to get two essential errands done (the bank & the post office), and though I only achieved one, these days that feels like climbing a mountain, so I'll take it.
Day 013/???

Got out again and finished the other errand, which is to pay rent, which shouldn't be happening, but is not optional right now. BOO. Otherwise, chatted with an old friend currently stationed in Japan on Skype for 5 hours, which was wonderful! So much to catch up on!
Day 014/???

Keep having to catch up retroactively on these because time has no meaning anymore... Today was two weeks officially since my last day at work, which has felt like at least a month. Still waiting on everything from unemployment, but claims have been filed, at least.
Day 015/???

Trying still to be gentle with myself about days where I accomplish little to nothing. This whole situation is a major anxiety trigger basically all the time, and anxiety can easily trigger depression for me. Got a lovely cheer up card from a friend, thankfully.
Day 016/???

Two of the three people in my apartment are on SNAP benefits to get by, which means today was food shopping day. Only went two places, but doing so responsibly and safely means this takes all fucking afternoon, and is exhausting. But it's done.
Day 017/???

Supported one favorite small local business before they shut their truck down for some undisclosed amount of time. Watched a movie with Manny. Cooked a delicious chicken dinner, as I have definitely not been getting enough cooking done. Instant Pot remains King.
Day 018/???

It seems like after any productive day (yesterday) I immediately follow it up with a completely useless day (today), where I feel shitty and lethargic and the only thing I accomplish is spending part of it in a different room. It's starting to wear on me pretty hard.
Day 019/???

Today was really rough for me, but reading another email from my bosses (I'm currently furloughed, but they're keeping us updated every week), and then some coworkers messaging tonight about doing a group movie watch... I miss my people, but even remotely they help.
Day 020/???

Got dressed with minimal make-up on to make a grocery run with the roommate. Better than getting nothing done, though still feels inadequate, nearly 3 weeks into this. At least Showtime is marathoning all of Twin Peaks: The Return tonight.
Day 021/???

Three weeks ago tonight was my last work shift until... who knows? Today was awful, no two ways about it. Potentially had my entire backup of the past 10 years of my digital life snuffed out by a surprise computer error. Looking into recovery options; not optimistic.
Day 022/???

Dealing with this massive amount of possibly unfixable personal portfolio and data loss was apparently the final piece of the Jenga tower still holding my mental health shakily together, because I have reached a new depth of crippling depression today.
Day 023/???

Adding today's tweet now because I already know nothing good or of note will be happening between now and midnight, so whatever. Definitely at rock bottom now, just over 3 weeks into quarantine. Good to know!!
Day 024/???

Got more steps in today than I had in probably more than a week, which I needed. Also, had a first group movie watch with coworker friends I miss on Discord, and it was the most laughing I've probably done in weeks. Helped cheer me up a lot. I miss my Amoebites!
Day 025/???

Every marginally good day I manage to have seems to keep being followed by extra bad ones, a pattern I hate. Had very little energy today and generally felt like crap, but at least there was a new episode of #Insecure and I played Uno with the roommates for a bit.
Day 026/???

Finished rewatch of S1 of Dead Like Me w/roommate, which he's seeing for the first time; is one of my all-time fave shows. Still no good news on the finances front nor the data recovery front, which I guess means I'm just living with a permanent headache now!!
Day 027/???

After 3 weeks of ever mounting financial stress, today both my unemployment benefits (with added bump) and my stimulus check arrived. A humongous relief, which gives the slightest taste of how much my mental health would improve if I made more money generally.
Day 028/???

Definitely clearer headed now that financial stress has been removed at last. Looking into planning my way out of any remaining debt, since I'll likely never get another chance. Had my weekly coffee & tart and started a new book. Good to finally be reading again.
Day 029/???

Lazy day after an obnoxiously early Costco run, but at least that was a successful trip. A bit worried about my kitty Buster, who's been grooming excessively and just generally seems uncomfortable and not his usual self. Will try to get him to his vet tomorrow.
Day 030/???

Took my kitty Buster in to the vet to see what's been up with him recently, seems he might be developing some kind of skin allergy, though we're not sure exactly to what. Got some meds for him and a little inflatable kitty collar. He was such a good boy all day.
Day 031/???

Welp, here we are, a full month in. It remains a struggle. I still sleep absolutely garbage hours, don't cook often enough (nor eat enough), accomplish very little around the house, and often feel awful mentally. But I'm home and alive. I'm more fortunate than many.
Day 032/???

Feel like I'm smiting the calendar by going past 31, as if the calendar means anything anymore. It does not! Anyway, today was once again largely a wash, but I archived a few things, read a good amount of hours, and finally watched #TheBooksellers doc, which I loved.
Day 033/???

My one foray out of the house was a curbside pickup from Best Buy -- a strange and new experience in itself -- for a new backup hard drive. It holds 4TB and is somehow smaller than any other (smaller capacity) drive I've ever owned, which is just wild to me.
Day 034/???

Made it out for a nice long walk through the back areas of my neighborhood today, but further and on different streets than I've been on, with a coworker friend. We discovered a sculpture garden you can just wander into around someone's house! And what a view of LA.
Day 035/???

Picked up my weekly coffee from my favorite cafe, since I'll keep supporting them, even from home, as long as is possible, and spent most of the day reading and listening to records. Hopped on Discord for a fun movie watch with Manny; now on to editing!
Day 036/???

Spent pretty much the entire day focused on only one screen, as opposed to my typical toggling between three (phone, TV, computer), editing a fantastic new work from a masterful old hand fandom writer who I'm privileged to also call a friend. Up all night; worth it.
Day 037/???

My hours are entirely fucked up today as a result of editing all day and night yesterday like a complete maniac, but weirdly feel like this might sort of help to reset my shitty body/sleep clock orientation overall?? We shall see! Probably just kidding myself!!
Day 038/???

Ran some essential errands w/the roommates, including finally finding some nutritional yeast to hopefully help Buster kitty's skin feel better. Once home, chilled and read, then watched another truly BONKERS movie with my movie department coworkers over Discord.
Day 039/???

Finally got to have an overdue Skype call with the person I miss most these days, chilled and read and set up some new electronics around the apartment. Was reminded why I need to be much more selective about the men I bother to follow on this hellsite. Fun times!
Day 040/???

Rough news about work, but I suppose in some ways it was inevitable. Not being able to give the original building a proper goodbye is going to be hard. Hoping they'll still allow me to photograph it... Missing my fellow Amoebites; trying to keep my mind elsewhere.
Day 041/???

Went for another nice long walk with Manny up into the surrounding neighborhood, plus revisited the sculpture garden my coworker and I found last week. The guy who runs the place turned the lights on as it was getting dark, just for us. The air remains phenomenal.
Day 042/???

Picked up my repaired car, so that's another lingering weight off my mind, fortunately. Got my weekly coffee for a treat later on, plus a sandwich. My appetite always takes a complete nosedive during times of stress, so trying to remind myself to eat when I need to.
Day 043/???

Had one of those useless days where we tried to find something we really need for the house in several places, none of which had it, which in this heat is all the more frustrating. At least had some communication with friends on the computer later to save the night.
Day 044/???

Today started off well and productive, mostly thanks to a forced early appointment, but spiraled away from me from there. Seeing Amoeba already so stripped down inside was tough. Thinking about where I was two years ago today was even tougher.
Day 045/???

Clearly the total loss of any set life schedule has fucked with my body clock beyond repair. I won't get into which hours I was sleeping vs. which I was awake for, but let's just say I nearly missed that today even happened. Seems fine!!
Day 046/???

Today wasn't a waste like yesterday, got some essential errands done with the roommates, but I just can't shake this constant tiredness. It's like my body is constantly aware that things aren't going to get better for a long time and isn't taking it well.
Day 047/???

Tried to sort of reset my sleep schedule and feel like it both sort of worked yet sort of didn't? I don't even know at this point. Did have a nice bunch of little treats arrive in the mail though, so that was a bright spot in the day.
Day 048/???

Tonight was my first shift of sorts back at work at Amoeba, helping pack up and dismantle the store. It's physically exhausting - more so than even my usual job entails - and very bittersweet, but if this is the only way to say goodbye to the store, I'll take it.
Day 049/???

Second night of packing up at work, involved less crouching down than last night, and thank god, since I think my thighs are done with that for the week. Got my hard drive back, and though there's tons of reorganization ahead of me, seems a lot of data was saved! 😭
Day 050/???

Absolutely physically exhausted after three days in a row vigorously packing up at work on the volunteer night crew. Will sleep well tonight, I'm sure. I am still sad about Souplantation, dammit.
Day 051/???

Finally am (mostly) done being sore from the physical labor I did on Tuesday, so that's something! Been getting up earlier after going to bed earlier due to exhaustion, which has been weird, especially since I still don't like eating breakfast. Felt productive, tho.
Day 052/???

Already back onto some crazy ass sleep schedule just one day after working again, which really shouldn't surprise me. Just tried to lean into it and spend the day relaxing, since my energy once again isn't great. I'll either get better at this one day, or I won't.
Day 053/???

Yet another one of those many lost days where I didn't leave the house or really do much of anything, though of course called my norm for mother's day. Watched a movie with Manny over Discord for fun, which was nice.
Day 054/???

Drove out to Simi Valley to take my roommate to visit his mother's gravestone, which it was finally nice enough weather to do. Very pretty and tranquil out there. Took a night walk later to shake off some restlessness, which sort of helped.
Day 055/???

Back to it for the second week of helping pack up the store, which remains as exhausting but necessary as ever. It's hard to watch the place continue to come apart, one piece of funky history at a time. Trying to photograph bits of what little is left.
Day 056/???

It's amazing how much one can still sweat while doing hard manual labor even when the temperature is way better than it was last week. Popped up on the roof to photograph a view that one day soon will be gone forever. Started the day with my weekly coffee.
Day 057/???

These days packing up the store really do wear me out, but in a weirdly satisfying way; at least it's something to do with my time. I whacked the hell out of an ankle tonight, but at least I'm done until next week.
Day 058/???

Still often seems to take me until way too late in the day to get productive, but picked up some of my favorite to go ice cream anyway, then finally reorganized all my goddamn CDs, which somehow took even longer than I could've imagined.
Day 059/???

Finally finished my full rewatch of DEAD LIKE ME, which I was introducing my roommate to for the first time, and it remains one of my all time, top five desert island shows. So spiritually comforting for a show centered around death.
Day 060/???

Wow, two full months. Got to be the longest 2 month stretch of my life at this point, no contest. At least had a Discord meeting movie night with some of my coworkers to take a bit of the edge of that fact off, with the spectacularly bonkers Night of the Demon.
Day 061/???

These numbers are getting wild to look at, let me tell you. Felt guilty at first about accomplishing basically jack shit today, then realized I'll be spending a chunk of tomorrow loading 53' moving trucks with pallets bigger than me, and am now fine with it.
Day 062/???

Moving work started today, which just meant hours of loading pallets and fixtures onto massive moving trucks. Which weirdly ended up feeling somewhat less physically exhausting than last week's work? Who knows. Got to see some coworkers I hadn't seen in ages!
Day 063/???

Took on an extra night shift today, pretty much spent five hours moving pallets either up from the garage or down from the second floor to the main to prepare for more truck loading in tomorrow. Exhausting work, and the store looks emptier every time I see it.
Day 064/???

Another exhausting day, but the store in most places seems all but entirely empty now, especially with the posters all coming down off the walls today. Still, it's nice seeing coworkers again and making the best of a sad situation, having lunches on the roof.
Day 065/???

Still physically worn out even down to my fingers from all the work yesterday, so spent most of the day trying to relax and recuperate. I'm still distressed by how little reading I've been doing these two months. Concentration apparently still basically shot.
Day 066/???

Did some work around the building today for a roommate BBQ we'll be having out back on Monday; the new owners don't do jack shit to maintain anything around here, so the landscaping is getting pretty ridiculous. Otherwise trying to keep cool during another hot week.
Day 067/???

Walked up the hill to Griffith Park, which I've done fewer than a handful of times ever, despite living literally right down the hill from it, because I suck. Had a nice social distancing picnic with Manny in the late afternoon, which was very nice.
Day 068/???

Had the roommate BBQ today, plus our neighbors from the apartment right across from us joined at a safe distance — nice to have a back patio to the building that can accommodate this. Even on good days, time still seems to slip away from me like water.
Day 069/???

Since I'm finally able to, invested in the larger Instant Pot that can sous vide and air fry, which means I can give my smaller (and less complicated) one to my mama, which will help a lot with her own cooking needs. I rarely get to do anything for her, I'm excited!
Day 070/???

Today was my last day at Amoeba's original location, just stopping by to take some final photos. They'll be wrapping up the move process tomorrow, and we'll be fully vacated by Sunday. I'm really, really going to miss it, and saying goodbye was hard.
Day 071/???

Got my COVID-19 test at one of the free drive-thru locations, which was an interesting experience, and I'll be curious to see what the results are. Ended the day watching the MN 3rd Precinct burn and felt more radicalized than I have in 15 years or so.
Day 072/???

Picked up some supplies in preparation for protest tomorrow, then stopped by a friend's house to pick up some of his beautiful photo prints and chat with his lovely partner, also a friend, from across their porch. So nice to see her again after so long.
Day 073/???

Attended the LA BLM protest march, which was beautifully organized and peaceful for the first few hours until police decided to start shit and things got crazy. Got out before things got too out of hand, but just watched the news the rest of the night, horrified.
Day 074/???

Got to see a lovely friend I hadn't seen in person in over two years (!!), albeit talking from opposite ends of a safely long table outside, but still a balm in these fucked up times. Of course, they advanced curfew on my way home and I barely made it back in time.
Day 075/???

Stayed in the house all day, as my sleep schedule is once again all shot to hell, and watching the escalating violence in my city and elsewhere has made it hard to sleep even when exhausted. Watched an old comedy with the roommates just for an attempt at distraction.
Day 076/???

Days are slipping away so weirdly now? I thought it was bad enough under just the previous, basic (!?) quarantine conditions, but now, thanks to curfews and insanity flying in from all sides, I just seem to scroll through news past the point of fully absorbing it.
Day 077/???

Since I had to pick something up at Michaels anyway, went ahead and dropped an extra 10 bucks on sign-making supplies. Spent a chunk of the evening painting up three of them, possibly the most satisfying thing I've been able to accomplish in weeks. Fuck the police.
Day 078/???

Yet another day where more horrifying things came down through the only trustworthy flow of news information (Twitter, incredibly) than one could even keep track of. Celebrated Buster's 2 year adoption anniversary, my kitty, who is the best and keeps me sane.
Day 079/???

Picked up some donuts for Donut Day, safely as usual, and being out seeing people back eating in restaurants, as if everything is normal, was extremely fucking bizarre. Otherwise, still sliding through the days until protest-quarantine is over.
Day 080/???

It's looking more and more like my triple-digit numbering choice at the beginning was the scarily right decision... Today the only thing I was up for was picking up a few necessities for Buster kitty. Otherwise still quarantining since my roommate has felt unwell.
Day 081/???

Still donating to the funds I can, and supporting whatever Black owned businesses and sourced books that I can. Will always wish I had more cash to do so, but every bit does count. Seeing the Hollywood protest turnout today was incredible. Action continues every day.
Day 082/???

Roommate grocery shopping is always ultimately exhausting, likely because they're a young white dude and an old white dude, so it's like being forced to babysit in public for free. Had to argue the latter into acknowledging some serious racial blind spots later, too!
Day 083/???

After eight years saddled with the debt it took to survive my first year living in LA, today I finally was able to pay off every last cent of it. I know I tweeted about this separately earlier, but it's a big enough deal to me to mention it twice, dammit.
Day 084/???

I went out for my weekly coffee, and realized it was too fucking hot to do anything, and I mean absolutely anything, else at all today. So I didn't. That's really all I can say. It was too fucking hot so I sat around by the A/C and read.
Day 085/???

Took a little drive down Crenshaw for some truly delicious eats from @postandbeamLA in support of #thegreatamericantakeout Thursday, then came home and got to Skype for a bit with my lovely friend Rasha, who I miss chilling with immensely.
Day 086/???

The weather finally cooled the fuck off today, thank god. Took the opportunity to grab a big russet potato and try out my air fryer for the first time, which easily produced some light, crispy and delicious fries. Excited to try sous vide next!
Day 087/???

We hung out in the back patio with Manny and a couple close friends, all socially distanced, to have pizza in honor of my roommate's birthday, which was very nice. Very grateful for that big outdoor space back there these days especially.
Day 088/???

Got my second negative COVID test back, this one post-protest activity. Celebrated by trying cooking sous vide for the first time, which resulted in by far the very best and tastiest steak I've ever made. A longer process, yes, but absolutely worth it.
Day 089/???

An extremely lethargic day, and I'm not even sure why, since it wasn't grossly hot today like several other recent days have been, which always saps all my energy. The fact that we're almost 3 months in with utter lack of leadership is just exhausting at this point.
Day 090/???

I honestly almost can't believe I'm about to hit the official triple digit mark on this thread, and we're literally nowhere better in this crisis than we were when I started it, way to go America!!! Anyway, I've been feeling extremely lethargic for days, it's fiiiine
Day 091/???

So I made my first attempt at using a menstrual cup today, which apparently was traumatic enough that it scared the early start of my period away? That, or it was mild spotting that tricked me, though the cramps were wild. Who the fuck even knows, I'm worn out.
Day 092/???

Felt so suddenly exhausted and lethargic with so little appetite today that most of it slipped by in a haze. I did finally manage to eat some noodles late in the evening, so hoping tomorrow might turn out better, though really not sure. Just a weird and bad day.
Day 093/???

Yeah, so today did not improve on yesterday whatsoever, in that today I was barely physically functional, so that was a fun way to essentially lose an entire day. But phones and internet made supporting Black friends and causes on Juneteenth still possible, so 💯
Day 094/???

Today was... better. I had something closer to a more normal appetite, which helped me feel less lethargic, though my sleep schedule is still unbelievably fucked. (Just check the time stamps on this thread, these are always posts about what is actually yesterday! 🙃)
Day 095/???

Still sleeping horrifying hours, but today was still better, so I'll take any improvement I can get. Ate better, went out for a walk, called my Dad in Switzerland for Father's Day, and felt a bit less like absolute shit, so we're getting there, slowly.
Day 096/???

So the nearly entire week I spent feeling like utter shit was mostly hormonal? JFC. On the plus side, feel less shitty now and the second attempt with the menstrual cup has been far more successful (though a bit unavoidably messier) than the first, thank fuck.
Day 097/???

Got to visit and spend a few hours catching up with a good friend who runs one of my favorite bookstores, who I hadn't been able to see for months. He'd curated a couple bags of books just for me and digging into them when I got home was the best part of this week.
Day 098/???

Now that I'm so used to using the cup, this has honestly been, even taking cramps into account, the most overall comfortable period I can recall dealing with. Took advantage of that to spend some time out of the apartment and get some errands run. Mood much improved.
Day 099/???

Took a nice long drive down into South LA today to both run some community errands and just enjoy being alone and out of the apartment. Once home, watched a movie over Discord with Manny, also nice. (11 years post MJ already? Damn.)
Day 100/???

The hundredth day of this. JFC. What can even be said? On the brighter side, my one errand today, picking up Angela Muñoz's debut album, resulted in receiving her first ever signature on an album, which was a very cool surprise! Can't wait to give it a full listen.
Day 101/???

Needed some space for my brain to quit doing the most, so spent the majority of the evening putting together a Lego set for the first time since I was a pre-teen, probably while listening to jazz records. I now have a Lego ISS in my room and it's pretty cool.
Day 102/???

Cooked something up for my roommate, so he could see how to use the Instant Pot, which I didn't mind, as that makes it pretty quick. Joined my movie department coworkers for another movie night, finally; we hadn't been able to reschedule for a few weeks. Miss them!
Day 103/???

Went to a friend's apartment for an extremely masked one-on-one haircut, my first in over 6 months and during quarantine times. Fortunately, Fallon is a pro and it was quick and safe. Went for a bit of a change and I'm happy with it!
Day 104/???

I think I'm still in denial that I'm pass the hundredth day mark, everything is fine. Spent much of today starting in on a project with my roommate to finally properly reorganize the one storage space in our whole apartment, which is under the stairs. Should be fun!
Day 105/???

Oops, fell behind again! Just as well, though, since literally all I did yesterday was venture out for my weekly coffee pickup, then spend hours slowly working my way through reorganizing my stuff from the small storage space in the apartment. It's a big project.
Day 106/???

Reorganization project continued today, and again, was basically all I did today. Found the bin full of thousands of old family photos, so of course going through those slowed my progress way down. Found some entertaining stuff, though.
Day 107/???

Reorganization progress continues, though still slower than I'd like. The real issue is if I were going to do this as well as I want to, I'd have a bunch of crap in the living room for over a week, which I of course can't do. Still wish I could, because I'm a maniac.
Day 108/???

Didn't bother with the holiday because this country remains on its bullshit, just did my best to comfort Buster over all the very nearby fireworks, and finally finished the reorganizing project! Made some delicious fried chicken in the air fryer to celebrate.
Day 109/???

Invited a couple friends over for another socially distant and masked BBQ, still very grateful the large patio out back makes this possible and safe during such an isolating time. Was a nice way to celebrate getting so much work done around the apartment this week.
Day 110/???

Though I'm not 100% done with everything I want to move around/reorganize, the biggest chunks are done, and there's so much more breathable space in my little room, it feels pretty great. Moving into the smaller bits of tinkering here and there in my closet, etc.
Day 111/???

Drove out to pick up something I'd ordered yesterday to aid w/the project, but otherwise spent the day in tinkering with the fine organizational tuning of what's left. It's taken basically a whole week, but the storage, my closet, and my room all finally look great!
Day 112/???

Accidentally skipped posting this the day of, as it was Manny's 37th, and we spent the evening safely cooking a delicious birthday dinner (magnificent steaks! plus fries) and watching one of our favorite fun movies. A really nice escape from *gestures at everything*
Day 113/???

I could lie and say I remember what I did on this day, but I honestly don't. I mean, I re-enrolled in dental, vision and life insurance through work, though still furloughed for the foreseeable future (not health insurance, of course, I can still never afford it).
Day 114/???

Day 114/???

Pretty much napped and/or slept through much of the daylight portion of today, as my sleep schedule remains TREMENDOUSLY jacked. That's the new normal for my brain though, apparently, so it barely even feels weird anymore. thisifine.jpg ? Who even knows.
Day 115/???

After sleeping on and off for nearly 12 hours, presumably trying to make up for not sleeping at all the day before, I ended up awake naturally before noon today, which is extremely unnatural for me. Tried to enjoy it despite the deeply awful heat. I hate summer.
Day 116/???

Yet another day this week that I basically mostly slept through! I'm sure my mental health is mostly fine!! Definitely! On the plus side, my kitty hung out near me all evening napping away, because he's the best kitty. Love that li'l fuzzbutt.
Day 117/???

Today was... better! Getting myself into (and out of) bed at a more reasonable hour definitely helped, even if the heat was DISGUSTINGLY demoralizing today, holy hell. A very welcome phone call was a big help, too. Have to try to be more productive this week.
Day 118/???

Have given up on keeping a solid sleep schedule, since my body clearly knows it doesn't matter when I am and am not awake anymore. Did at least cook some spaetzle for dinner, which was pretty much the only productive thing I managed to do for the day.
Day 119/???

Did not sleep at all last night, then just stayed up all day trying (once again) to reset my fucked sleep schedule somehow because... Why not? Time is meaningless. Finally feeling tired so we'll see what the night ahead brings. Exciting!!
Day 120/???

Maybe skipping an entire day of sleep was the answer? Who knows! Today I got up early after catching up on plenty of sleep, hung a bunch of art in my room, had an afternoon walk, made some delicious dinner, and feel very accomplished. Finally, a non-shitty day.
Day 121/???

Walked to the post office in the afternoon to mail off a copy of my indie press's book for the first time in a while, which was nice in the moment, but the heat wore me out for most of the evening. Good thing about quarantine is there's nothing but open days ahead...
Day 122/???

Today was a good day involving some restorative time with a good friend, which we both really needed, so I'm glad it was possible. Also a lot of cuteness from my cat, who remains the best, which helps a lot too, especially on the not so great days.
Day 123/???

The first part was good — slept well, got up before noon, scored some of my favorite ice cream for Ice Cream Day, relaxed at home... Then I found out a dear friend I've known more than half my life suddenly died and we're just finding out. I am... not taking it well.
Day 124/???

No further news on what happened to my friend last week, which is confusing and upsetting to say the least. Tried to distract myself by getting some things done around the house, putting up some shelves, moving some books around. Sort of worked, but still distraught.
Day 125/???

Ran a few errands I needed today, and helped my roommate prep for a trip for a memorial for his own longtime friend who also died last week. He's not happy about having to fly, but can't miss it. What a strange and awful time it is now, all the time.
Day 126/???

Got my weekly coffee and then mostly chilled around the apartment, then took a walk to my neighborhood bookstore, since the weather was surprisingly nice today. Otherwise, basically have the place to myself, which feels less enjoyable and more isolating right now.
Day 127/???

Accidentally didn't sleep at all for a day again (as in last night bled directly into today and I just let it happen). I'm still not dealing with my friend's death well, but some time with another friend today helped comfort and distract me for a while, which I need.
Day 128/???

Would've liked to be more productive today, but then the worst cramps I've ever had (nausea, that's a fun new thing!!) absolutely kicked my entire ass for a few hours, and I gave up on the day and just focused on getting through it. Feeling better now, at least.
Day 129/???

Drove pretty far out of my way for a random and fairly inconsequential errand today, since I knew it would be my only time out of the house. Worth it, since I spent the rest of it not enjoying my bitch ass cycle, though at least the cramps have let up.
Day 130/???

Hit a real depressive low today, I'm sure not helped at all by the current hormonal situation, but still. Drove around aimlessly for much of the late afternoon trying to escape it. Very helpful phone call ended up helping the most, fortunately. Onward.
Day 131/???

Felt better today, physically and emotionally, which I really needed to. Ran a couple errands I also needed to, put up a few more shelves in my room, and then drove out to LAX to pick up my roommate, coming back from an old friend's wake. Eerie lack of traffic.
Day 132/???

Learned that some dear friends will be leaving the US soon, and I doubt I'll be able to see them before they go. It makes sense (with a young baby and a husband with cancer, why stay here? this country is a hellhole), but still sad, even if they'll be better off.
Day 133/???

Genuinely beginning to wonder just how high the number in this thread is going to climb before it ends... Introduced my roommate to a lovely, under-seen Miyazaki film this evening, so at least that was nice. The heat is starting to bear down on us and ugh.
Day 134/???

Was foiled trying to get my money for rent by computer issues at my bank, so just gave up on getting any errands done and headed back for a Manny movie night, which vastly improved my mood, thankfully.
Day 135/???

Helped my roommate get a shelf up today and tidy up some other main areas in the apartment, but otherwise just a lot of lying around failing to escape the encroaching heat. I fucking hate the summer, y'all.
Day 136/???

So, it's August and this started back in mid-March and we're all still in hell? Cool, cool. Anyway, I indulged in my favorite soft serve ice cream today, because nothing matters anymore, but at least ice cream is still good.
Day 137/???

The summer heat is officially here and I hate everything about it, because summer is absolutely the worst season of the year. Managed to get laundry and some other things done, but also nearly overheated at more than one point, ugh.
Day 138/???

Another wonky day where I unsuccessfully attempt to reset my sleep schedule, and I suspect the heat kept me from resting (and not) when I wanted to. Meanwhile, I've apparently taken to using a coloring-by-numbers app on my phone to try to quell near-constant anxiety!
Day 139/???

Picked up some things for something I'm attending with my roommate later this week, literally the first thing I've been able to look forward to for months, so that was nice. Also, he bought me a super soft weighted stuffed shark, who I love and is genuinely calming.
Day 140/???

Sleep schedule remains off and frustrating and has my head in a strange state. But I got to help a friend today by delivering groceries, so that was nice! I hardly ever feel useful anymore these days, so that was mutually helpful, I think.
Day 141/???

Drove out to Pomona to attend my first ever drive-in, a fantastic double feature of A Nightmare on Elm Street and Scream courtesy @am_cinematheque and @BeyondFest, and it was so much (gloriously safe) fun. I missed going out to movies so much!!
Day 142/???

Took Buster in to the vet this morning for his annual shots update, and he was the best boy ever, as usual. Didn't sleep last night at all so sort of napped a bit during the afternoon, but otherwise just continued trying to manage my near-constant anxiety.
Day 143/???

The days continue to slip around and by me like water at this point, and the lack of regular sleep is a big factor in that at this point, I'm sure, but here we are! I at least got some grocery shopping done today, but that was about it on the productivity scale.
Day 144/???

I was both asleep and conscious for very odd parts of the day, which is starting to wear on me, especially with the increase in weird dreams. I did get to finally have a much needed Skype call with someone special though, which always helps when the stars align.
Day 145/???

Definitely not in a good headspace these days, and I'm starting to feel it physically (sore all over, etc.), so that's fun. Do not recall the last time I slept well. But got a lovely review for my press's book today that really felt rewarding, so I'll take it!
Day 146/???

My one outing today involved going to 2 different Ralph's trying to find cheese, which neither of them had. Then I made spring rolls in my air fryer. That was it! Things are going great with me, in case you couldn't tell! Politics are too depressing to even get into.
Day 147/???

I almost never have the day I hope, and I'm frankly never as productive as I hope, and is getting too depressing. What was good: got my weekly coffee and tart, sold some stuff, read quite a bit (FINALLY), and got to safely hang with a friend before they leave town.
Day 148/???

Got some more essential errands done, but it's still tough finding some of the things we need, and knowing far less money is coming now makes it much more stressful. It was also got as fuck today with smoke in the air, full summer fire season, the worst of the worst.
Day 149/???

The heat is officially here and it's brutal already, I don't know how I'm going to take a week of this shit. I had things planned to get done today, and it was so hot I just... Could not manage to do them. Summer is the fucking worst.
Day 150/???

Getting out of bed was extremely challenging today, as the heat had reached a truly unbearable point, and I basically wanted to die. I did at least get some more reading done, but otherwise, literally fuck doing anything else in this garbage ass weather.
Day 151/???

Managed to drag my overheated ass out briefly for a couple of errands (including some extremely necessary ice cream from my favorite soft serve truck), but couldn't stay out long, as I felt like death after only a couple of hours. I hate summer. Yes, again. Always.
Day 152/???

Stayed in today, as the heat felt so much worse just getting out of bed felt nearly impossible. Watched the Lovecraft Country pilot, cooked up some fries, had a necessary talk with my business partner about our publishing plans coming up. Time to get cracking.
Day 153/???

Took impossibly long to drag my ass out of bed today, because it was 105 fucking degrees which pretty much made me want to kill myself. Fortunately, after sundown, made it out to pick up some skincare essentials to start a new routine, so at least there's that.
Day 154/???

Hot as balls once again, though slightly more bearable, but plenty of ash in the air to make up for any perceived improvement. At least got to spend the evening watching a great movie with Manny and having a nice dinner, both of which were overdue and a comfort.
Day 155/???

My roommate pissed me off so much yesterday I ended up spending much of today channeling rage through cleaning various things, which I guess was ultimately productive, but in this weather was also gross and exhausting. Ready for another day already, please.
Day 156/???

Bit less hot now, but so much muggier thanks to the storms out in the desert, so it's still as gross af up in here. Still impossible to find either Spam or parmesan cheese, for whatever reason. The ash in the air has cast that unique fire season haze over everything.
Day 157/???

The heat and humidity has reached a point where I can't even comfortably sleep through the night, so that's been fun. At least the evening involved making some tasty salmon for dinner and a couple wild movies with Manny, so the latter part was saved.
Day 158/???

Have gotten my waking and sleeping hours almost completely reversed thanks to my trash sleep schedule plus the gross heat, so that's been fun. My adorable kitty woke me up from a horrible nightmare I was having, at least, because he's a li'l angel.
Day 159/???

Another day of garbage and not very restful sleep just like the several before, and not sure how much more of the my body will tolerate. Made it out for one errand, which was at least semi-successful, though it appears the fan and AC in my car are dead so, whee!
Day 160/???

Seems like the heat and humidity are both finally starting to break a bit, thank god. Drove downtown and successfully parked in 2 different locations (impossible under normal circumstances) and saw an old friend while picking up a book, which was refreshing.
Day 161/???

Continue to sleep like garbage, but who even cares anymore? At least got to spend the evening with my one quarantine buddy this year (Manny) enjoying another couple of movies and some dinner. Helped him get his mind off some bad family drama, fortunately.
Day 162/???

Got a quick nap in before heading back out to Pomona for another delightful drive-in double feature! This time featuring the original Bill & Ted, followed by the new film, Face the Music, which was a delightful distraction from the woes of the world got the night.
Day 163/???

Slept comically late, but at least got to spend the evening after that in the safely distanced company of a good friend in her spacious back yard, and meet an interesting new person in the process. We're all so socially starved these days, it's crazy.
Day 164/???

In trying one final, desperate time to reset my garbage sleep schedule, I pretty much, despite a couple of breaks, slept through this entire day. Cycle effects, depression, tiredness, and knowing it literally doesn't matter to skip an entire day likely contributed.
Day 165/???

Was all set to finally have a better, or at least more normal, day after sleeping more normally, but then was suddenly walloped by insane cramps and literal nausea, even though my period is nearly over, which never happens. So much for that! Ugh.
Day 166/???

Sleep schedule reset... sort of? Worked? I mean, not all that much, to my extreme chagrin upon waking (wtf did I waste Saturday for then??), but I feel less shitty overall, so whatever. Was helped to finally get some writing done by someone dear, thankfully.
Day 167/???

Had more to do today, but slept very little (and badly), so the day felt long, but not in a good way. My roommate was kind enough to treat me to lunch and some ice cream, though, even if eating out at a restaurant for the first time felt very strange.
Day 168/???

Got my weekly café treat and chilled during the day, then got picked up by my old coworker friend for a trip to walk around Manhattan Beach in the night under the very bright moon. Great to catch up and just be near the ocean again, the warm water and no one around.
Day 169/???

Had a hell of a time getting to sleep last night, who even knows why anymore, but at least tonight was the Manhunter/Silence of the Lambs double feature out at the Mission Tiki Drive-in! Having anything at all to look forward to these days is a godsend.
Day 170/???

Sleep remains elusive, and of pretty poor quality whenever I actually manage to do it; I've pretty much given up on fixing either of these problems, as it's been weeks. Lazed around and wasted yet another day. Is depression the symptom or the cause? Who even cares?
Day 171/???

Going to take a melatonin (even if they don't seem to do much of anything for me but maybe the placebo effect will??) and force myself to bed earlier tonight because I legitimately can't take much more of this and the heat is on the verge of making me lose my mind.
Day 172/???

Ended the day on a rather panicked finance-related note (WHEE), but otherwise did my best to escape the truly insane heat with Manny, my good cooking for us, and a couple of very fun movies. Any good distraction helps at this point, as everything is garbage.
Day 173/???

The heat is finally falling off a bit, but there's so much ash in the air from the fires it still feels humid and soupy out. Keeping a close eye on the one near my mother's area, hoping the winds don't change for the worse and we can catch a break for a change.
Day 174/???

First time ever using SNAP to food shop, but I'll take it, since that's my financial reality at this point! Ran a few of those errands with my roommate to try to stock up a bit; air was cooler but heavy and still thanks to all the lingering ash out there.
Day 175/???

Skipped sleep last night as I'm once again desperately attempting to fix my fucked up sleep schedule by any means necessary. Got some errands done, and the smoke seems to clearing up around here. Got my weekly tart and coffee, one of my only routines left.
Day 176/???

The day started off okay, and here's my dumb ass once again thinking I can get through the whole day without sleep the night before to reset my head, and then inevitably crashing in the late afternoon and sleeping the rest of the day away like a backwards maniac.
Day 177/???

Woke up earlier than usual thanks to the crazy amount of extra sleep from yesterday, feeling more normal at least. Took a walk to my neighborhood bookstore despite the shitty air quality, and it felt good to get out and move around, then just chill at home at night.
Day 178/???

Got a later start than I'd hoped, but whatever re: time anymore, I guess. Got to spend the evening with quarantine buddy Manny, cooking some dinner and watching another movie together. I don't have much respite from everything these days, so these nights help.
Day 179/???

Another day of accidentally skipping sleeping at night, then paying for it with not random naps during the day, ugh. Got an errand done despite the horrendous air quality, but otherwise no energy for anything other than reading. Tired of feeling crappy all the time.
Day 180/???

On to two days now with no regular sleep, whoo! Managed to get plenty done though, between cleaning my bathroom and successfully installing a bidet without accidentally flooding it, so that's something! Better than nothing, anyway. I'll take it.
Day 181/???

Can't believe we've really made it past the 6 month mark and things have only gotten worse! What a time. Got some household errands done, but the air quality remains garbage so can never stay out long. Hard to believe my birthday is nearly here, feels p meaningless.
Day 182/???

I think this thread has grown so long it's broken the normal threading structure on Twitter? Fun! Anyway, got my weekly coffee and tart (s/o to Javista, my favorite place to be a regular) and some errands done, then just chilled at home. It is once again stupid hot.
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